Eerie Anne's Journal

[Eireanne]

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[Armee]

I don't believe you are beyond help, EA. But you do need a therapist who will do more than CBT. That alone does not fix trauma and can make it feel worse. I'd probably try looking for someone who works with attachment trauma or developmental trauma and who uses several different types of therapy tools, not just cbt or just dbt or just emdr. Etc.

[Moondance]

Your needs are important Eireanne.

I hear you and can so relate.

Safe virtual  for you.

[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

i don't think you're beyond help either, EA.  It can be trying and daunting to find a therapist who will listen and respect your own knowledge and experience, but it's not necessarily impossible.  it took me a while, but i've finally found one, and it makes a world of difference.  but, as a therapist,   it's my job to tune into a client, ask the right questions, help the client figure out the answers. your job is to do the best you can.  keep taking care.  love and hugs

[Eireanne]

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[Armee]

That's a really traumatizing and retraumatizing situation, EAnne.

[sanmagic7]

   you sound overwhelmed.  maybe some of these pieces could be broken down and processed more slowly?  just a thought.  love and hugs

[Moondance]

Thinking of you Erieanne 

[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

hey, EA, one of the things my T does w/ me (do you have a trauma-informed T to help you with all this?) to help me contain some of the bigger pieces so i can focus more easily on one thing at a time is she sets up imaginary crates, one for each person who is part of my trauma history, and puts the ones i'm not processing in their own respective crates, locks them, and holds those keys for me.  it's helped me not be overwhelmed by so many people and thoughts banging at my brain at the same time.

if you need them, i have extra (virtual) crates where you can put some of what you're dealing w/.  you can label them in your mind, (such as not being heard, frustrations at work, being autistically challenged, etc. - whatever feels right for you) send them into their respective crates, lock them up, keep the key, and know they'll be there when you're ready to deal w/ them.

you have so much knowledge of how your system works, what you need, what you're not getting . . . perhaps problem-solving for one or two things at a time, realizing what's most important for you at this point in your life, and looking for ways to resolve it might help.  just a thought.  best to you with this, EA.  love and hugs