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1) I have my wherewithal back again

2) I washed a huge stack of dishes - chiefly saucepans, kitchen knives and other stuff that can't go in the dishwasher

3) I cooked a warm breakfast this morning - sort of like porridge but with chopped up apple in with the oatflakes. Probably the first time in at least 3 years, tho for years before that this was something I cooked regularly. The last couple of sessions in OT/trauma therapy have obviously had an affect.    

4) Went for a little cycle from A to B and enjoyed that. Mild temperature, no rain     I also felt purposeful, which is a good feeling

     

I relate to a fair chunk of this too.   

Welcome to the forum, Westman 

Wow.

Moving. Also great potential to be triggering. For me, not in the abuse described (tho big potential there too) but feeling/sensing the emotions from those who spoke in the film. I intend to re-watch.

They talk about things we know, they just use other words. They talk how I talk sometimes too - pausing, stopping, too hard to say, but then they do say it.

 

As always: These types of conferences and summits are free during the conference. Once you sign up, you'll get a fair number of emails suggesting you pay for permanent access. That's really not necessary. The material gets recycled - it'll come up in another conference/summit in a few months!

+ see my post here for additional general info: https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=16458.0

   

https://www.alexhoward.com/decodeyouradhd/live

Although ADHD is NOT part of cptsd, there is overlap - some people have both diagnoses. There has been talk of adhd on the forum and how to recognise it as distinct from or in addition to cptsd. I've also been recommended to look into it by someone on the forum because one of my big symptoms looks like adhd. 

So just putting this out there for anybody who might be interested.

Link to trailer and website: https://theeternalsong.org/owl/?kuid=a7aaf7fa-a2b4-4989-b5df-a4af7919510b-1762778063&lid=436615&kref=l4bDCOKidhlF&affiliate=forbis

[Their pain wasn't just in their minds. It lived in their bodies, in their breath, in the way they carried silence. Neuroscience calls it trauma. Her people call it disconnection from Spirit.]

Copying from an email I got:

When Dr. Patricia June Vickers began working with survivors of residential schools in Canada, she saw something that modern science could not fully name.
 
Their pain wasn't just in their minds. It lived in their bodies, in their breath, in the way they carried silence.
 
Neuroscience calls it trauma. Her people call it disconnection from Spirit.
 
So she began to bridge the two.
 
Between 1831 and 1996, over 150,000 Indigenous children were forcibly removed from their families and placed in government-run schools designed to erase their culture, language, and identity.
 
As a trauma therapist and hereditary healer of the Tlingit and Haida lineages, Patricia developed ways of working that bring together neurobiology and ceremony, somatic awareness and ancestral prayer.
 
She understood something profound: the nervous system, like the land, remembers everything. Healing doesn't come from analysis or effort, but from returning to relationship.
 
This is the wisdom at the heart of the new film If An Owl Calls Your Name, where Patricia, her brother Roy Henry Vickers, and other Elders and healers from the Esk'etemc, Gitxsan, and Wet'suwet'en territories share what they know:
 
Healing isn't something we do. It's something we remember.
 
The land, the language, the drum - these are not metaphors for wellness. They are the original medicine.
 
When the people reconnect to them, the brain begins to reorganize, the body finds safety again, and Spirit returns to the center.
 
This is healing. This is ceremony.
 
Our friends at Science & Non Duality are presenting the global premiere of this profound film, created in collaboration with Indigenous communities who are reclaiming land, language, and spirit.
 
The Global Premiere: December 9-13
 
The premiere is a 5-day journey that includes:
 
🎥 Community screenings of the film
🔥 Daily live sessions with Indigenous Elders, healers, and activists
⏱️ 48-hour access to all talks if you can't attend live
 
You can join by offering a donation of any amount, including $0. Half of all net proceeds go directly back to the Indigenous communities featured in the film.
 
Reserve your spot for the premiere.
 
This film was made with the same care it documents - slowly, respectfully, with every conversation guided by sacred relationships.
 
What you'll witness is transformation. The profound work of remembering what was never truly lost.
 
Join the global premiere.
 
Warmly,
 
Eric Forbis
Co-Founder, Best Year of Your Life Summit

Blueberry says: TRIGGER WARNING to film - Survivors of community and generational trauma speak in the film, as I've noticed in the 2-min trailer. otoh it could be interesting to hear how a different people with different traditions than the 'first world' countries so many of us are in understand trauma to be and how they view healing.

1) I'm selling some stuff on the Internet classifieds and got 2 inquiries today from people who are definitely interested and even tho they haven't collected yet, just them contacting me brings a spark of joy and energy into my life

2) I felt the motivation to do some vacuuming, which was long overdue. I went outside my apartment door to vacuum there too and found:

3) a parcel from my godson. It's an Advent calendar consisting of little presents for each day until the 24th. Of course he and possibly his mum chose them specially for me. That's a really nice personal set of gifts for Advent. A reason to get out of bed each morning too to go and find out what the next little pressie is     

Finally come to join you on the porch, san and everybody. I'm curled in a chair covered in warm wool blankets watching the fire and dozing off. It feels easier to sit and do nothing but here on the Porch than at home.

Wow, san! Your story of the Beatles and then the Stones     

no anxiety last nite, and i slept all nite, got close to 8 hrs.  feel pretty good this morning.  and that's a weird feeling, but i'll make do!  lol!

Wonderful!     

For me, joy is often a fleeting and very spontaneous emotion. I don't mind that it's fleeting. When I spontaneously smile or feel as if I'm radiating within, that's often brought about by joy.

For me, it's usually small things that bring joy: watching cute animals or birds and insects in the garden, seeing the first flowers of spring, seeing a flower still blooming in November, somebody spontaneously smiling at me especially a child, the sun coming through the clouds, talking to my own pets when I still had some, singing with others, looking at certain colours like certain blues and greens, colouring in using yellow and orange. I agree with Chart and NK that what gives one person joy is quite personal, so my examples are just that - what works for me. Your joys might be quite different.

I wrote a book of daily joys a good few years ago and that was really useful to have me dwelling on feeling joy even if just for a few minutes a day.

I think contentment is a really good state of being/mind to aim for. When I'm feeling contented, I think it's a longer-drawn out emotion than the spontaneous joy at the things I listed above. It's not so intense as joy, maybe that's why joy is fleeting for me, maybe I couldn't handle an intense feeling over a longer time without dissociating or something.

In this moment I feel JOY at something accomplished and JOY with that accomplishment being in line with one of my values: generosity and giving to those in need