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would really value hearing from others who might recognize this.

I recognise it but don't have the bandwidth to write anything else on it.

https://powerofmeditationsummit.com/season9/?ref=https%3A%2F%2Fkelly-blaser.mykajabi.com%2Fa%2F2148211044%2F8hSKmLND%3Fkuid%3De418e470-0552-4e3c-aaca-fc7ced501ea0-1767623669%26lid%3D1072366%26kref%3D89I2Lnpbt5Yf

From the blurb: "Join us to explore how we can transform not just how we
talk to ourselves, but our very understanding of self,
reality, and consciousness."

Topic: meditation and somatics

Among the 30 speakers, there are certainly some with a name in the fields of trauma, including EMDR, somatics and neuroscience: e.g. Arielle Schwartz, Sarah Peyton, Ron Siegel. Not to say there aren't possibly other great speakers to learn from.

As always: These types of conferences and summits are free during the conference. Once you sign up, you'll get a fair number of emails suggesting you pay for permanent access. That's really not necessary. The material gets recycled - it'll come up in another conference/summit in a few months!

+ see my post here for additional general info: https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=16458.0

As always: These types of conferences and summits are free during the conference. Once you sign up, you'll get a fair number of emails suggesting you pay for permanent access. That's really not necessary. The material gets recycled - it'll come up in another conference/summit in a few months!

+ see my post here for additional general info: https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=16458.0

As always: These types of conferences and summits are free during the conference. Once you sign up, you'll get a fair number of emails suggesting you pay for permanent access. That's really not necessary. The material gets recycled - it'll come up in another conference/summit in a few months!

+ see my post here for additional general info: https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=16458.0

This looks great, thanks BB! Although I think I'm gonna be tied up at work this week...

Each day's recording become available free-of-charge as of the end of the day's session and remains free until the end of the 5 days, so certainly worth signing up for! imo + ime these things are even worth joining to listen to even one of the week's recordings. Last time I listened to one of Alex Howard's presentations, there was unfortunately a bit too much time spent on advertising the follow-up presentation that was going to last 6 weeks and needed to be paid for of course. So I hope he doesn't spend so much time on that this time, but if he does, I can always leave the session and go do something useful, or listen with half an ear. Even so, it was worth signing up for the freebie sessions - I think that one was about ADHD, rather than trauma.

I'm with you on the horrible memory Chart, and it being a handicap in professional and financial life

Welcome to the forum shosh

Got a request from B2 for a phone call to discuss certain aspects of  FOO finances. Tho I am grateful that my brothers seem willing to even discuss with me rather than e.g. decide over my head, and I am also grateful that they seem to have come round to the idea of FOO money continuing to support me to some degree despite our parents both being in care, which is super expensive. Nonetheless it took me sleeping a night on the subject to realise that I do NOT have to reluctantly aquiesce to B2's request!! It's a request not an order and I AM ALLOWED TO SAY "NO". Even it were an order, that would not be okay coming from B2 or anybody else in FOO, and so even more reason to say "No" to something that is going to be harmful to me. I mean that's the REASON for this particular boundary. FOO doesn't understand because beyond their comprehension apparently, but that's even more reason for me to stand my ground and stick to my boundary.

Register anyway! There are often replays.

In this all-new, 90-minute session, you'll have the rare opportunity to learn directly from Dr. Peter Levine, the creator of Somatic Experiencing® and a pioneer in the field of somatic trauma healing.
I'll be joining Peter to discuss:
•   How shame and grief live in the body and how they reflect the body's attempt to protect and self-regulate.
•   Core Somatic Experiencing® principles that help the nervous system's natural movements.
•   The interplay between shame and grief—how one can block the other, or allow release.
•   Gentle, body-based techniques to help release these patterns and support regulation.

This isn't just theoretical teaching––you'll see practical demonstrations and learn how somatic techniques and interventions are applied to real clinical scenarios.

[Dr. Peter Levine]

Learn how shame and grief take root in the body and why they often show up as collapse or withdrawal. In this free 90-minute training, you will see how somatic practices support regulation, expression, and renewed connection.

Wednesday, Jan 21, 2026 @ 12 pm MT | 2 pm ET

https://www.traumahealingexperts.com/

There are few opportunities to watch a true master at work.
Even fewer that let you feel the process as it unfolds in real time.
Join me, Dr. Diane Poole Heller, as I host Dr. Peter Levine, developer of Somatic Experiencing®, for a free 90-minute masterclass:
Shame & Grief: How Trauma Lives in the Body
This live online event offers a front-row seat to the living art of trauma healing — an unscripted demonstration of how the body tells its story through movement, breath, and sensation. You'll see how shame and grief intertwine within trauma responses, and how the nervous system, when met with safety and curiosity, begins to restore balance and dignity on its own.

https://www.alexhoward.com/decodeyourtrauma/live

Welcome to the forum

I'm sorry for all you've been through, in your early childhood and then in the past couple of years too and everything in between. It's a lot.

[Ran]

Good grief Ran, a 2 year wait for therapy,

It's not unusual to have a two-year wait here for therapy, especially trauma therapy. You know where I am Kizzie.
Ran, I'm in a continental European country too.

Lately there us a guy in my life. He knows about my inner child and cptsd. He is very kind and supportive. He kinda became the father figure. Not in a freaky way or anything like that. Mostly he's been trying to get my inner child out more. Make me play and have fun and smile. We even wondered if we have been good parents. It's kinda sweet.

That's lovely, Ran.

I've done a lot of inner child work too and I'm trying to think how I progressed in it. I know that reading "The Artist's Way" by Julia Cameron and doing some of the exercises was helpful. Also doing things like finger-painting and eventually foot-painting, neither of them being things I ever would have been allowed to as a child. There were a couple of years in which I spent a lot of time swinging at the park. Apparently, it's something that children almost need or at least it's very beneficial for them for regrouping etc so it was interesting to me how much I seemed to need it then.

It was also helpful for me to read books about child and adolescent development, basically parenting books, but with more modern ideas than my parents ever had. Also, acquiring a few new stuffies who are my therapy/healing stuffies, not childhood stuffies. If you build up a relationship with healing stuffies, sometimes just looking at them can help you find a solution, I have found, or just have a few impulses on what to do next, eg. play!

[much]

From yesterday and today:

1) Yesterday I washed a whole bunch of dishes by hand, especially sauce pans and crockery that somehow wasn't cleaned properly in the dishwasher
2) I did other cleaning and tidying in the kitchen and it looks so much tidier and more inviting
3) I watched  thru my window around midnight. I wouldn't set them off myself for a bunch of reasons but they are pretty to look at

4) Today I cooked myself a hot breakfast with souring milk, rice and fruit.    So nice to have a filling hot breakfast when it's cold outside and even a little chilly in apt
5) I continued tidying and cleaning. My living room is much better. Most of the dust bunnies are now in the vac. cleaner - just need to do one more corner.
6) It was a lovely sunny day. I didn't go outside but had the window open on and off to shake dusters etc out the window