Allie's Archives: a recovery journal

[alliematt]

Arrgh!!!  Not dealing with C-PTSD as much as I am just dealing with stress . . .



Our washer died last week (it was delivering our clothes to us sopping wet).  A repair person said that our gear case and clutch wasn't working and wanted nearly $500 to fix it.  We could BUY another washer with that!

In the meantime, we had a LOT of laundry to do.  So Friday:
I weighed in at Weight Watchers
I went to see my counselor
On the way home, I nearly turned left on a RED ARROW (I was thinking about other stuff and was distracted)
After lunch, I took the laundry to a laundromat, only to find that the change machine didn't work
Took the laundry to another laundromat and ended up using nearly five or six machines
Got dinner out because I knew that I wouldn't be able to cook
Discovered that I had LEFT laundry behind
Went back to the laundromat where I discovered that I had left not ONE, but TWO loads of laundry behind, one in a dryer, one in a washer!!!

Yesterday we went to Home Depot and ordered a new washer.  It will be here Thursday.

[Blueberry]

 

[Sceal]

Eeep!
That sounds stressfull as *!
Good job on handling it so well, and doing all those other chores and appointments as well! 

[alliematt]

And to top it all off:

We have possible ice on the roads this morning, PLUS the National Championship football game (for college football), PLUS the President is coming to town to watch it. . .  SO . . .

School was canceled for today
My husband just left for work (normally he's gone by before 6 a.m. and its nearly 10 a.m. now)
I had to cancel an appointment of my son"s
AND THEN . . .
since my computer"s Wi-Fi has been acting up, I"ve been using a plug-in that goes into my USB port to access the Internet.
This morning, I BROKE IT.
I accidentally kicked it as I was sitting down with the computer.
My husband has the car so I cant get it replaced right now.
I WILL Have to eventually get the computer fixed, because that is how I earn my living. 

[Three Roses]

Wow, that's a LOT of stress!!! I think I'd just want to curl up in bed with a good book and ignore everything for a while. 

[alliematt]

I did barely anything yesterday.  I played a lot on the iPad and iPhone.  Watched TV.  Did go and get a new Wi-Fi adapter so I could get back on the Internet.

[Three Roses]

 

[Sceal]

Sometimes we all need those days where we don't do anything.

[alliematt]

Annd, in other news . . .

We got a new washer (yay!)

I feel sick.
The dryer isn't connected (don't know why)
I hope I don't have the flu.

[DecimalRocket]

Sometimes it's not one big bad thing, but many little bad things that add up. Sorry to hear that. 

[alliematt]

Yep.  It's the long list of little things that add up.  And THAT is what gets me sometimes.

[alliematt]

Today has been a bad day.  I just want to scream at everyone. 

[alliematt]

I don't know what I am supposed to believe anymore.
And I'm so confused about everything that I don't even know what questions I'm supposed to ask!

[Elphanigh]

That can be so frustrating. Can I send you warmth and hugs to help with the frustration? 

[alliematt]

Thank you for the hugs.

Underneath all of my frustration and the questioning is the belief that there are no answers.