The ramblings of an abused kid (trigger warnings galore)

[GoSlash27]

And *now* I'm worried.
 I have all of my memories intact going all the way back to age 1. These memories of age 3 haven't been erased like they should've been. They're still in there under wraps, waiting to burst forth.
 And now that I know what happened, they will begin to flood out.
 15 months worth.

[GoSlash27]

 Disturbing snippets from the file...

" 7/8/74 (Slashy) has either a hearing problem or is mentally slow. (redacted) is uncertain, but believed he was to be tested for evaluation (redacted) did not know where testing was to be done."
 How awful was my experience that they found me in that state?? I would have to have been catatonic!!

" 8/21/74 According to to Mrs. Homind at Lawnvue Acres, (Slashy) is also doing very well. There has been no bed- wetting with (Slashy), although, as with other children who were out of diapers, he has awakened once or twice in the night and taken to the potty. He seems to be in good health and is toilet trained. (Slashy) speaks a great deal, and he is difficult to understand."
 My clear baritone delivery and deliberate, perfectly clear diction was a hallmark of 2 year old Slashy. My dad used to relate the stories of me doing it and I remember it vividly from my end. "Daddy? I didn't say I was thirsty, I said I was hungry". I was so messed up I had a speech impediment??   

"This case became known to CWS when (mother) abandoned her children and (father) took over their care and placed the children in his home under the care of (Miss Pat), a long time client of CWS whose children had all been placed by CWS, all but one in institutions. This was a very inappropriate placement which occurred in approximately September of 1974."

 I have exactly one evening's memory of Miss Pat, which I have related previously. Yes. "Inappropriate" is putting it mildly.

[GoSlash27]

 And so the new timeline is as follows:
 -Everything correct up until hiding in the motel.
 -Mom ended up imprisoning/ neglecting us in a 2 bedroom apartment.
 -Mom abandoning us with a good caretaker
 -Caretaker can't afford to keep us, gives us to CWS.
 -I arrive in the shelter (McIntyre/ Lawnvue Acres) catatonic, then with a speech impediment.
 -Released to the care of my father and grandmother
 -Grandmother falls ill, left in the care of "Miss Pat". Abuse.
 -Bounced between mother (neglect/ imprisonment) and "Miss Pat" (abuse).
 -Abandoned by mother, left with Miss Pat.
 -CWS called.
 -Subsequent timeline correct, but a year out of date. McIntyre Shelter, Foster home, reunited with mother, brother, and grandmother.

 Everything in orange was edited out, the ends spliced together.