I Am

[NarcKiddo]

 

I hope this backlash passes soon.

 

[Bach]

Strategy for managing my self-hatred:  Find one little useful thing I can cope with doing, no matter how small, and do it.  Then if I can, find another little useful thing and do it.  Then if I can, another.  Etc.  If at any time I start feeling like I can't cope with whatever I'm doing, STOP.  Find something else to do, or rest.  When possible, go see the river.

[Blueberry]

I wish I wasn't a black hole of neediness and dysfunction.

I read this right next to the picture of a parrot in your avatar. I'm wondering if that parrot thinks you're so needy and dysfunctional. I bet they don't.

(Although I do unfortunately understand where you're coming from with that wish.)

[HannahOne]

With you in the self-hatred today, Bach.

I'm going to try your strategy.

You are not alone.

[sanmagic7]

Strategy for managing my self-hatred:  Find one little useful thing I can cope with doing, no matter how small, and do it.  Then if I can, find another little useful thing and do it.  Then if I can, another.  Etc.  If at any time I start feeling like I can't cope with whatever I'm doing, STOP.  Find something else to do, or rest.  When possible, go see the river.

sounds like a solid strategy to me.  and, yeah, sometimes being w/ nature is one of the greatest healing devices ever concocted.  glad you have a river to go to.  love and hugs

[NarcKiddo]

I agree that sounds like a good plan, Bach. Going to see the river sounds like a useful thing to add to your list of useful things, maybe?

[Blueberry]