Post-Traumatic Growth Journal

[sanmagic7]

so much there, SO, it's no wonder it's overwhelming and intimidating.  the idea of not being heard, not being able to express what's on your mind and in your heart is stifling.  what you've gone thru is brutalizing.

the idea of trying to explain c-ptsd to someone who doesn't know it, well, i've tried too many times and have given up.  i don't think it's understandable to someone outside the knowledge.  and, yep - platitudes are the worst, as far as i'm concerned.  i've gotten a lot of 'let go and let god' kinds of things, especially from 12-steppers, or 'be grateful for what you've got', and 'find something every day that makes you smile' kinds of things from others.  uh uh, nope. 

i'm glad you're able to see your shrink before you delve into answering your M.  i think that's wise.

keep going, one step at a time (that's one thing from 12 steps that i agree with.)  rest when you need to, and go at your own pace.  you deserve that - your pace, not anyone else's.  hiding your truth in order to serve someone else's, well, it's awful to say the least. i know that one all too well.  i have faith - you'll get there.  love and hugs

[SenseOrgan]

sanmagic7
Wow, those people added insult after injury, probably with the best of intentions. There are a gazillion ways to tell someone to shut up and those sound a lot like it. There is no way to skip to acceptance or forgiveness. Those are hard earned in the case of C-PTSD, or may never emerge from the ashes at all. It is the cherry on top of the healing journey.

Thanks a lot for your support. 

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Toxic shame: someone else's projections absorbed into your sense of self.