Desert Flower's Recovery Journal

[NarcKiddo]

That sounds like a really rough day and I'm sorry you had to endure it. You were very brave to go back to that town and I am sad your friends chose to have your get-together there. I know that experience of dissociating the heck out until you are unable to navigate a train station without help. It's awful, and scary and so, so draining.

I hope you can now relax and care for yourself and stabilise.

 

[Hope67]

Hi DesertFlower,
Wow, you have been through a lot - I think you were brave to re-visit that place.  I don't have words to say more - but wanted you to know that I read what you wrote, and I hope you don't mind my describing you as brave, but I believe that you are.
Hope

[SenseOrgan]

Hi Desert Flower, thank you for sharing. The intensity is coming through here. I'm really sorry this happened. Friends not grasping the horror of what you went through is very painful. It's one of the worst things about this invisible wound. For me at least. Obviously the location is charged, so I can see your friends just having fun there like nothing happened to you can feel like a slap in the face.

It may be a bit too soon after the incident, but I see the value in being angry. I'm hoping this means you yourself aren't minimizing/doubting your experience, and thus being on your own team.

I wish you safe sailing through this storm.

Big hug 

[Desert Flower]

Thank you friends, for being here and for your kind words and understanding. It means a lot to me. Big hugs back

 

[Blueberry]

DF, I read too. I second NK but I can't write it all out, I'm sorry.   

I'm so with you on the over-use of "trauma" and "trigger" by those without ptsd or cptsd.