Healing journal (tw) Angering / strong emotions

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[StartingHealing]

Jan 6 2025

Mercy where does the time go?  I remember as a child days that seemed like forever.  Ahh well.

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I'm one who has experienced and continue to have experiences that fall outside of the Newtonian clockwork universe concept. Started as a wee one. Perhaps due to what I went through with being relinquished, spending 9 months with some caretaker (that info unfortunately is lost to me) then being placed with a family in which there was 0 related genetic anything.  I've always had a interest in what is commonly called "woo woo". Which I have come to realize is another facet of human experience that has been intentionally been pushed away from main stream consciousness.  Much of what is claimed in "woo woo" actually has basis in fact once quantum mechanics is applied + the realization that what we perceive with our 5 senses is such a narrow slice of the entire EM spectrum. (At least as far as humans have been able to find out about the EM spectrum.)

Where does the "knowing" that another being is staring at you come from?  Ever know someone that plants just grow for?  What about someone that never gets lost?  Pets that get excited when their person leaves work? You get the 'willies' and leave an area and then find out later that something tragic happened in that location.  How did humans way back when know what plants were good for what?  Some plants unless processed in a particular manner do not heal, they will kill. 

Looking at animistic beliefs prior to the imposition of organized religion, there has got to be a very good reason for the ancestors to have done what they did especially when what they did falls outside of the survival paradigm.  Most indigenous cultures have beliefs about spirits of place, spirits that help, spirits that are tricksters, ancestors that are watching and helping from "over there".  Yet the narrative is that those beliefs are non-scientific, ignorant, the stupid savage mindset, I feel has been not only wrong headed, it's led to some really bad events, and I believe it led to belief system that has reduced us to some sort of electro-chemical carbon based machines that arose out of the primordia goo by accident. Which if you really look at things now, in modernity, you can see that being played out on a grand scale and it's a very saddening thing to me.

For me personally, the 100th monkey phenomena makes sense.  I think it was back in the 1970's maybe the 1980's.  Groups of monkeys, same species, on islands in the Japan archipelago, no interaction between the differing groups, researchers noticed that a single monkey figured out that washing some sort of potato in sea water was a really good thing. Cleaned the food, get some salt intake, maybe it made it taste better?  The troupe of monkeys where the 1 figured it out eventually had the entire troupe doing it.  What the researchers noticed was that the critical mass of 100 individuals was the threshold because once that was reached, all the monkeys on all the islands started doing it, even in troupes that had no behavior like that before. No intermingling because of the distance between the islands, way to far for them to swim, so it wasn't the learning by observation. What happened for the knowing that washing the food in the sea was a good thing get distributed to all the monkeys of that species?  For me it goes back to that there is "something" there that exists outside of the expected norm of 5 senses. I think whatever that "something" is, a human in the proper state of mind can perceive it.

Think about all the "new" things that our ancestors knew / did as a matter of course.  Earthing is now a thing. Food grown with love and respect has multiple times the amount of nutrition than factory based. Which we can sense. Fresh from the garden VS factory based. Which tastes better?  Water has memory. Masaru Emoto took water and then exposed the samples to positive or negative influences. He then froze the water and took pictures of the resulting ice crystals.  Positive influences = crystals that are symmetrical, visually attractive. negative influences = blobs, no symmetry, misshaped.  Awareness is rising about EMF and how some of it isn't good for the human body, light is the same way, LEDS & fluorescents,  are turning into something that one needs to manage because of their second order effects on human biology and behavior, not to mention the blue light emitted by screens that messes with our circadian rhythm.  The food .. Some of the dyes used really mess with people.  Many kids labeled ADHD, ADD, remove the food dyes and surprise! the ADD, ADHD goes away. And that is just the tip of that iceberg. Those that garden, getting there fingers in the dirt etc, even if its only growing flowers organically, have a healthier micro-biome than those that don't.   

There was the experiment where a group of folks that pray consistently were asked to pray for a certain people in hospital.  Not only did the ones that were prayed for recover quicker they also had better overall health after.  This has been shown many times. What this double blind experiment did though was have people pray in the current day, for people that had been in hospital a decade or more before. Turns the idea of causality on it's head.

 Other experiments have shown that the length of pleasant music on a cassette tape increased, that the ph of water can be changed, all of this has been done multiple times, by different people, and same results.  One last thing. Remote Viewing which was an actual gov't paid program.  When folks with training are getting 80% and higher confirmed results.. yeah there is definitely something going on that for some reason that something has been buried, intentionally I would say. 

Think about it.  Who benefits by keeping the average person away from the innate abilities that exist within them?  Which groups have benefitted over time by pushing the ideology that we are an electro-chemical carbon based being with nothing going further than that?  Or more insidious, to me anyway, the groups that have pushed the idea that our reward or punishment lies on the other side and it's for an eternity?  Which groups benefit by having us just healthy enough to continue to continue and not upset any apple carts? Which groups benefit by using propaganda to push certain anti-human narratives, let alone keep the average person in a constant state of fight / flight?  I'm not saying that there is a super villains group that are consulting with each other on how to jack with us. However, those with a particular mindset will typically find others that match that mindset.  Birds of a feather type thing.

Hope that this helps explain better where I'm coming from. 

The pet cams are working well.

Wishing all here all the best   

[StartingHealing]

01-08-2025

The current treatment I'm doing for my doggo seems to be working well.  No more blood in the urine for the last 3 or so days, appetite has returned, been feeding him fatty meats, more pep in his step.  Amazing how much 'weight' has been removed with him moving in the direction of health and wellness.  I think that I will continue the sheep drench for the 3 months and see if the skin cancer will also either reduce and/or go away.

Wishing all here all the best

[Hope67]

Hi StartingHealing,
I am relieved to hear that the treatment for your doggo seems to be working well, and I hope it continues to do so. 
Hope

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Me too!
 

[StartingHealing]

Jan 13 2025

The spiral continues.  It has taken quite a while for my motivation to return.  there is a big difference between doing things because they need to be did, vs having the want to in doing them is something else, you know? 

I don't know at this moment what the what is on the why.  Perhaps there was a spiritual weariness.  My doggo behavior wise is better, I have to remember that it's going to take some lineal time. 

Last couple weeks, the typical end of year mild illnesses have been coming around.  Really odd that with one "something" my emotions were really really high. With what I have learned recently, the blood / brain barrier is a lot more porous than I had previously thought. 

The process continues in my perceiving behind the created veil.  Have come to the conclusion that politics .. have to be engaged because what some jackwad wants may not be in the best interest of the whole and pushing back is the way stuff works.  Big Pharma, Big Food, Big medicine, cult of the white lab coats, Big oil, and the realization that in many cases, laws are what keeps these industries on the rails at all.  It's also been a saddening thing to me to realize that I have a whole pile of things that I believed that are based on a watered down, sanitized, and propagandized version of events. 

Wishing all here all the best

[StartingHealing]

Jan 15 2025

I feel like I need to write, that I need to express something and yet coming up with the verbiage is hard at the moment.  Lots of feeling that there are lots of situations that seem ambiguous .  I've found out that it's a thing for me to have ambiguous things.  I prefer to not have ambiguous, amorphous things going on.  The situation - reaction and for some reason the reaction part, even though I am capable and fairly good at coming up with solutions.  Somewhere in the mix .. I'm feeling like I've been knocked onto the hind foot and I'm still off balance.  My change in diet and supplements has been really good for the emotional aspects. weird.  even with pretty stable emotional state unknown where the feeling of being on the hind foot is coming from.  the other thing, in my life previously, I didn't have this feeling.

the other thing is there is a sub-routine in my thinking meat that the "desire" for lack of a better term, with starting the search for the "other".  Yet looking at my life now, and realizing that bringing a gal into the mix at this time is a not good idea.  I'm not in the right space spiritually / mentally / emotionally. Least now I realize that.  Perhaps that is where the feeling of being on the hind foot is coming from. Trying to be objective with looking at my past.  I guess I'm doing pretty good at moving on from stuff since I can't remember the month in 2022 that was the beginning of my becoming single again.

Well, need to do some other things.

Wishing all here all the best