I Am

[HannahOne]

Wow Bach, your post really resonated with me. I can feel your frustration! Makes sense to be frustrated as it sounds like you've done a lot of work in therapy.

I guess I think of it as these beliefs were instilled in us so young when we barely had a prefrontal cortex online. So words only could change so much. Once I stopped arguing with my beliefs in my mind and starting living out challenges to them in action, I could feel both my resistance and fear of change, and also the thrill of something different, something I DID believe or value. Somatic therapies helped, and, it's a work in progress.