Healing journal (tw) Angering / strong emotions

[NarcKiddo]

I've been catching up with your journal. Sorry about the freezer debacle. That sucks.

I was interested to read about your consideration of what to do with the dog mementoes. Like you, I have photos and memories and feelings of mine. In fact, my husband and I talk about them or refer to them every single day. I kid you not. It's not a maudlin, how much we miss them sort of a way, but more like the attitude to life they had and how much we could learn from it. One was a cheeky little chap up for adventure any time and the other was very staid and particular, demanding that every single day be the same as the day before. Both attitudes have their up and down sides. Everyone's different but despite how they are still very much alive to me there are certain things of theirs I simply cannot part with. Their leads and harnesses hang in their places to this day, some 6 years since they went on ahead. I don't really notice them there any more but I certainly would notice their absence. Anyway, I'm banging on way too much in your journal now.

I'd like to have friends in IRL and at the same time ... I wonder if the trade off is worth it.

This really resonated. I am sorry you have to contend with the issues you mention. There are aspects of that here (UK) but not as much as the media would have us believe. It's very much in pockets. For me the trade off is more about the risk of having maybe some closer human interactions that might not work out so well. But I think your sentiment probably applies to most people on this forum, even if their fears are not about the same thing.

I'm happy to read that you are progressing towards becoming your own best friend. That's so important and a very worthwhile endeavour. It's also really hard for us folks, so it's nice to be able to cheer on a fellow traveller.