Eerie Anne's Journal

[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

interesting stuff, EA. the more i read, however, the more i got triggered into a shame/guilt place, as if somehow my mind or i did something wrong. the word 'lazy' is very triggering for me - trauma around that one. so, i don't know how much i agree w/ some of this, or maybe it's my own issues.  but, an interesting take, new perspective about breakdowns.  love and hugs

[Eireanne]

@San, right there with you...some of these videos are just....wrong?  And I take everything with a grain of salt, but trust that it's triggering me too...listening to one on depression now that has everything just about completely "wrong" and yet I find a nugget of, "hmmm ok, let me think about that for a bit" so I leave it here in the journal to come back to once my brain sorts out the trigger.  Since different things trigger us, it may or may not work for you, I just hope nothing you read here offends you to the point you're upset with me, because that's NOT my intent 

[Eireanne]

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[Armee]

Aside from the offensive use of the word depressives which I appreciate you crossing out there is truth in this last one for sure. Rug sweeping is not useful. Processing is painful but ultimately quite healing.

[Eireanne]

Agreed @Armee - there's so much in these videos that offend me, but I'm balancing out my "righteous indignation" and wanting to rant to trying to find the useful bits...and crossing out the words that are offensive. 

[Eireanne]

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[Moondance]

Ohhhh that's how it should have been!!??

I didn't get any of that and I suspect the same for many of us.       

I really appreciate this info Eireanne - lots to think about.  Not just this post but all of them

 

[Eireanne]

  Moondance

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As humans, we are really good at noticing threats and weaknesses. We are hardwired for that negative. We're really, really good at noticing them. Negative emotions stick to us like Velcro, whereas positive emotions and experiences seems to bounce off like Teflon.

Being wired in this way is actually really good for us, and served us well from an evolutionary perspective.

[natureluvr]

Eiranne, thanks for your insights.  I especially identify with the ones about mourning ones losses.

[Eireanne]

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[Hope67]

 

[sanmagic7]

As humans, we are really good at noticing threats and weaknesses. We are hardwired for that negative. We're really, really good at noticing them. Negative emotions stick to us like Velcro, whereas positive emotions and experiences seems to bounce off like Teflon.

EA, i don't really agree w/ this. i often go back to babyhood, how babies react to themselves and the outside world. i do believe we are hardwired to notice threats - that's a survival instinct, isn't it? but, i don't quite understand the 'weaknesses' bit, or being hardwired for the negative. we aren't born with shame or guilt - those are placed on us by others. and i've learned and fought w/ myself not to categorize emotions as good or bad - they're just emotions.

anyway, just my 2 cents.  provocative stuff here. 

and, i agree w/ you that you deserve to have your story heard. i've found that w/ my T, but not really w/ anyone else, at least not the whole thing.  one H knows a lot, and that was over 16 yrs., but there's really not enough time for the whole of it. love and hugs

[Eireanne]

Thank you so much to everyone that is reading and offering thoughts, perspectives and hugs, I feel bad that I'm "down in it" right now and I'm so focused on my own needs and understanding that I'm not being the people pleaser and responding thoughtfully in kind.  It's really not in my nature and bothers me, so please don't take it personal, my lack of responding to your kindness. 

  for everyone supporting me here, and for being patient with me as I work through this mess.

[Eireanne]

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