Eerie Anne's Journal

[Armee]

It didn't come across as attention seeking not one little bit. Just a sad little example as you say in a long line of sad examples that add up to cause the damage that's been caused.

I really like the excerpt you shared at the end of your post. That seems super helpful for me.

[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

hey, EA, interesting bit about stress.  will have to think on that.

yeah, i've cleaned almost all those people from my life as well.  i'm definitely better off w/o them. in the end, they didn't treat me w/ respect, and as you said, no interest in finding out about me.

lovely words.  wish that i could take them in.  i hope you can.  love and hugs

[Eireanne]

@San - still working on taking things in.  Thank you for the love and hugs - much needed 

[Eireanne]

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[Eireanne]

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[Armee]

 

I'm so sorry

[Eireanne]

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[Moondance]

 

[Eireanne]

Thank you Armee and Moondance 

[Eireanne]

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[Moondance]

I will think about this some more but my initial thought is this is very applicable to me.

Thanks for sharing Eireanne.

 

[sanmagic7]

Fully accepting and embracing everything you've confronted and dealt with in life allows you to live from a powerful center.

hey, EA, i've found the above, 'fully accepting' to be a tremendous trial for me, let alone embracing it. am not even close to the second part yet, but realizing and accepting have proven to be great challenges to me. just reading this made me tighten up as if protecting myself from some new pain/hurt.  it's amazing/weird how such statements can exact very different responses from individuals.

you have certainly put in a lot of time and effort researching all this.  wow!  i can't take in half of what you write - it gets overwhelming for me.  and, i'm not suggesting you stop - these are my own issues - but it helps me see just where i am and what kinds of things bother me.  such as 'fully accepting'. it struck a chord w/ me.  thanks for all the info.  love and hugs

[Eireanne]

@San - it's incredibly triggering for me as well.  And a lot of what I leave here are things I read that I need to process to understand why it's triggering.  In my other journal, I let my "parts" rip things I'm listening to to shreds, to figure out why I have such reactions to things I read.  Exactly what you said - it's amazing/weird how such statements are interpreted so differently by individuals. I have been exploring so much of this...messiness of language, how so many people in my life got my relationships WRONG, kept telling me I was co-dependent (A HUGE trigger word for me) and depressed and anxious and having panic attacks, so I'm listening to all these saved videos and articles that I was being inundated with, and couldn't process any of it then, because I was reacting...the part of my brain that KNEW on some level people weren't listening.  The voice that screams BS...and so I leave it here because if I'm confused/angry about something - I know a lot of us in here are.  And I keep meaning to respond to your journal...but I think I might do it here, so if what I say ends up being upsetting, you don't have it sitting in your own journal...if that makes sense.  I just sometimes have really strong opinions about something and I don't often take the time to confirm whether I'm actually understanding what a person is saying, and not just how I'm reading it (and I realize that when I let my different "parts" read things, they all have different answers...and when I stop to listen to them, I get past why I'm being triggered and can sometimes get down to the root cause.  It's that place I need to keep myself for therapy in a few hours...

[Eireanne]

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