Eerie Anne's Journal

[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

If you don't know what you don't know how are you supposed to KNOW???

precisely what i've had to tell myself many, many times when looking back on how i've been in relationships, especially about boundaries. i agree, EA, that we weren't taught basics about boundaries so we were not able to go into relationships and not only not know what was not ok to allow but how to enforce that.  lots of negatives there, but certainly many truths as well. i can totally relate to this.  love and hugs

[Eireanne]

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[Hope67]

Hi Eireanne,
That scenario with the father speaking to his daughter about the car, and never staying in a place where no one sees your value is really interesting. 
Hope 

[Eireanne]

I thought it was interesting too.  Thank you Hope 

[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

if it's any comfort, EA, you're not abandoned here. i'm here for you as are others, no matter what's going on with you.  you're working hard to figure all this out, and i give you a lot of credit for that.  love and hugs

[Moondance]

 

[Eireanne]

It is San, thank you.

Thank you Moondance for the hugs

  to you both

[Kizzie]

  What San wrote Eireanne 

BTW, I absolutely love the antidote about the old car!

[Eireanne]

Thank you Kizzie    and thank you for this space, It is so very needed 


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[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

EA, 2 things you wrote really struck home w/ me -

I have a habit of putting a higher importance to the friendships I have than other people I think...because of these lack of connections with people in my developmental years

i think my friendships were connections to how i was supposed to be as a person, so they were of paramount importance to me since i didn't learn how when i was a kid.

You know my entire life, my dad never once told me he was proud. One of my grandma's friends told me my dad was proud of me. I was like, no, you're mistaken (or something) and she was like, oh no, he talks about you all the time.

it was my brother who told me this (rather than a grandmother).  my F was the one i was always trying to please (still try sometimes altho he's been dead for 50 yrs -those old desires are often still so strong w/in me)  while i am proud of myself, all i ever wanted to do was make him proud of me.  never happened cuz i never heard it from him.

this crapola surely does wreak vengeance w/ our lives.  here with you on all this.  love and hugs

[Armee]

 

You know that bit about your parents not letting you wait to get your yearbook signed made me feel really sad for you.

[Eireanne]

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