Eerie Anne's Journal

[Eireanne]

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[Moondance]

I get that Eireanne - we were kind, selfless and generous because we know and feel it's so important and lacking. 

I recall a few people in my life saying, "she tries so hard".  But how I really felt was good because I was doing good from my heart.  To me I wasn't trying that hard, it was just who I was back then.

Maybe I was trying to hard because now I have no energy for much of anything.

[Eireanne]

@Moondance - so relatable. These days I feel like I don't have the energy for anything.  Especially things that lead to feelings of rejection.

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[sanmagic7]

very sorry that woman didn't show up or bother to let you know she wouldn't be there.  was she at the book club at all?  i think one more month is fair.  best to you - i give you credit for reaching out for a social gathering.  that takes guts.  love and hugs, EA   

[Eireanne]

@San - oh yeah, she was there, and the only thing she made mention of to me was noticing my car was back from repairs and asked some sort of "how was I doing?" to which I replied, I'd be doing better if the universe would just give me a break for a bit, lol - she was mostly engrossed in conversation with the woman sitting next to her and didn't pay me any mind at all, none of them did.  They are all a chatty group that has been together for a while. There was no sense of welcoming or inclusion just, oh, you're here too. 

[Eireanne]

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