Eerie Anne's Journal

[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

 

[Eireanne]

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[Eireanne]

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[Armee]

 

That's a lot of neglect, EA. I'm sorry you didn't have anyone. Don't have anyone. I'll be rooting for you in the interview.

[sanmagic7]

allowing yourself to grieve is a sign of strength, to my mind, EA.  i do believe it'll help you get to a more linear place. i'm sorry for all the neglect. i wish you hadn't had to go thru it.  it's horrible.  best to you w/ the interview.  love and hugs

[Moondance]

My hopes and thoughts are with you as well for your interview on Monday. 

Caring to you EA
 

[Eireanne]

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[Eireanne]

Moondance, Armee and sanmagic - thank you so much for being my cheerleaders...I am hopeful about the interview, but not prepared, and honestly I'm looking at it as practice more than anything...I feel I am totally capable of doing the job, but not quite sure it's what I actually want to be doing...I'm keeping an open mind.  I think my time is better spent focusing on my trauma and grief right now...

The work situation - the HR investigator still wants to follow up with me and get a statement and she is required to follow the investigation to completion regardless of the fact I've already been eliminated.  I found a number of other people from the disabilities group I founded also got their positions eliminated.  I know some of them are successfully suing the company - not successful in the fact they are winning, just that I was unsuccessful in finding an attorney to take my case - it's too complicated, they said.  The issue is, I can't hold space for bringing up the events that caused relational trauma to the point I could no longer function AND look for a job at the same time.  Both things are true and there's not enough me to hold them both concurrently.  My brain simply cannot handle working on my resume right now, no matter how many times I try...it's easier to give in and let the grief that's been flooding my system like poison out...maybe if I do it enough I can find closure and truly heal.  Thank you for suggesting it's strength sanmagic. 

[Eireanne]

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[sanmagic7]

  there's grieving space in this hug, EA.  no strings attached.  love and hugs

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