Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
Sending you a hug of support  and also some sunshine 
Hope 

[Larry]

    i really appreciate everyone here ,  this forum is the only support i have right now,   and it has reallly helped.   
I feel good this morning.   I have been reading about the benefits of not drinking,   just trying to stay motivated.   I feel like i have been sleeping better.  i don't feel tired when i wake up.   i don't know what i am going to do today,  but i am going to try to enjoy it

[Armee]

 

We're glad you are here Larry. Sleeping well really helps too. I'm glad that is going well for you. I'm rooting for you. You deserve to feel better.

[rainydiary]

It is hard work that you are doing.  I hope you found something enjoyable today.

[Larry]

today is 22 days without alcohol.  i never thought i would say that.  i have an appointment with a therapist on april 5th,   seems so far away,  but i hope i can go through with it.   having a few ups and downs,  i don't know why it can be so hard to do be good to myself,   my wife hasn't had a drink in 5 days.   maybe things can get better

[Armee]

 

Wow. Larry. That's amazing. You're doing it! 

[rainydiary]

Thank you for this update Larry.  In my experience ups and downs are to be expected and can be opportunity to find what helps manage the downs in new ways. 

[Not Alone]

  22 days. Keep going one day at a time.

[Larry]

 

[Larry]

today is day 27 without alcohol !   things have been mostly good.  i have had some anxiety and some depression among many other things,  but i haven't been experiencing suicide ideation or dangerous behavior.  sometimes i think i am ok,    not sure about this therapy appointment on april 5th.   maybe i should go , 

[Armee]

So proud of you! That's a huge accomplishment! 

I think probably you know what the right thing is for you about the appointment so I'll just send on a few hugs of encouragement to keep moving toward healing.   

[rainydiary]

I appreciate you sharing this update.  I am here supporting you!

[Larry]

thank you armee and rainy !!

[Larry]

today was ok,   but i feel depressed and lonely.   i liked things better when i didn't feel emotions.   I reaally want to get back to that, 
day 28 without alcohol.  i want to continue,  but sometimes i have a hard time justifying not drining.  why am i doing this to myself?   Tomorrow i am really going to try to push emotions down,  i just do not want to deal with them.   

[rainydiary]

Larry, I appreciate you sharing this update.    I hope the feelings ease a bit.