How do I say this??

[SharpAndBlunt]

Three Roses if it is ok I would like to send you a big hug too

To thank you for sharing and for encouragement.

[Three Roses]

 
Hugs are always welcome!

Something I've wanted to say for a while - I know they're just emojis, but for me emojis replace the missing facial expressions and body language that's missing in online communication. That's why I use them so much - I think they help flesh out what I'm trying to get across. 

[Hope67]

 

Hi Three Roses, I love that you use emojis - and I really like your new Octopus picture too - next to your name.    to you.
Hope 

[Three Roses]

Thank you, Hope  back to you!

[Deep Blue]

I also like your octopus!  Did you know they have 3 hearts?  ❤️❤️❤️

[Three Roses]

Yes! They are the weirdest! Very smart, too.

[Hope67]

Smart like you - I didn't realise they had so many hearts.   
Hope 

[Three Roses]

Awww 😍Hope 

Today there is drama of the alcoholic type in my family. Actually the entire weekend was full of it. I'm so proud of myself tho, I'm not getting dragged into it, I don't feel the chaos, I don't feel responsible, I don't feel sorry for them, I'm not crushed, burdened, or frantic. Progress!  Yay, me! 

[Deep Blue]

Good job not letting the drama bring you down   

[sanmagic7]

yay you is right!         well done!   

i'll remember to use more emoji's for you.  i haven't been big on them, don't know exactly why (i like words, i guess), but i totally see your point.

   that's what i think of you being able to stay detached from the alc. nonsense.  it certainly can be difficult not to get involved, but i believe it's much better for us when we don't.

keep up the good work,  3r.  much progress, indeed!   love and 

[Blueberry]

Today there is drama of the alcoholic type in my family. Actually the entire weekend was full of it. I'm so proud of myself tho, I'm not getting dragged into it, I don't feel the chaos, I don't feel responsible, I don't feel sorry for them, I'm not crushed, burdened, or frantic. Progress!  Yay, me! 

on your progress!! 

[Hope67]

on your progress!! 
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Hope 

[Three Roses]

Thanks, everybody 

🥀🥀🥀

Since I started this journal, I've wanted to write here about the abuses that have left me with these symptoms, challenges, whatever you want to call them. That's why I named it "How do I say this" because it is so difficult to talk/write about.

I just can't put the words down. Things come to mind, details, words to express how I'm feeling, what was done, and when I pick up a pen or my tablet to write here, I'm left with a huge blank, black, empty spot where all those words just were.

Frustrating.

I can only assume and trust it only means the time is just not right - either that or one of my Inner Others just doesn't want to talk about it. Ever.

I'm left with the chirping of crickets in my head in place of everything I want to say.

[Deep Blue]

It's ok 3roses,
When the time comes, you will be able to say exactly what you need to say.  We are with you the whole time. 

[Blueberry]

I just can't put the words down. Things come to mind, details, words to express how I'm feeling, what was done, and when I pick up a pen or my tablet to write here, I'm left with a huge blank, black, empty spot where all those words just were.

I think it'll come when you're ready. The way you describe is almost the same as it was for me when I wanted to write Letters of Recovery directed at FOO mbrs on here. Further back it was similar for memories too. If Ts or docs prodded too much and wanted to know things I couldn't say, i'd start screaming internally and eventually out loud or dissociating. The mind-blanks are presumably a protection.

Sitting with you.