Papa Coco's Recovery Journal

[HannahOne]

 
PapaCoco, so much resonated with me. Letting go of achievement orientation and moving toward relational orientation. Maybe it was hard for we with CPTSD to access relational orientation, since through relationships we were wounded. Through years of healing, we can access this new compass, new direction. That is not a bad thing! Here we are.    

[TheBigBlue]

[sanmagic7]

back atcha, PC.  loving this connection aspect you're integrating, love the idea of connecting w/ people who care, who share, who are real - and can enjoy rice together!  love and hugs

[SenseOrgan]

I'm so happy for you Papa Coco! Just great! 

This organic algorithm churned out the following:
Your shift tells me that relating can be/is safe for you now. That's no small victory, considering your rough history. Just like other human beings, you are wired for connection. Finally it's safe enough to be you, so connection can actually be possible. The need for it was there before, but it manifested as loneliness. Because it couldn't flow in a hostile environment that shaped and carried survival patterns far into the future.

There's no need to become a worthy person through achievement anymore. There never was. No more need to push away the actual you, because he was met with such incredible hostility. No need to deny your worthiness by attempting to earn it. You are worthy by definition. Right out of the box. The people you grew up with greatly obscured, but couldn't erase that. It's starting to shine through for yourself. Despite it all.

I think this shift towards connection is a fundamental part of what Pete Walker referred to as "from surviving to thriving". We can't be fully human in isolation. Even if that isolation exists in our own mental prison only.

Congratulations for making it here. Welcome to the human race, that you never were not a part of. Welcome to your rightful, honored, appreciated, enjoyed, and valued part in the greater whole. Right where you belong.

Much love