Papa Coco's Recovery Journal

[SenseOrgan]

You're making sense to me Papa Coco. People who bully attempt to overcompensate for their insecurities by creating a sense of power over others, preferably in the form of terror, which means total power. It impacts those who are more sensitive more, so they are the low hanging fruit. I think perpetrators often perceive sensitivity as weakness. The aspect they despise about themselves and can't stand to be reminded of through others. Perhaps the jealousy is about seeing the actual strength in someone having the courage to be sensitive. If it can be defined/terrorized into a form of weakness, that gives the bully a sense that it can be kept out of awareness by force. It's all false, off course. Nobody has this kind of power.  What is so, isn't impacted by changing the story about it. Only the arrogance of the mind believes so. Narcs are actually extremely insecure behind their mask of grandiosity, which can't be stressed enough.
The battle really is between love and fear. The narc has fallen prey to fear completely. It may seem we have too. But that isn't the case if you're heart is still open. So often things aren't what they seem to be at first sight.

I believe HSP's are at higher risk for (C-)PTSD. As, in general, events impact us more deeply. So starting off life in a toxic environment has a profound impact.

One question, if you don't mind. Is there really anything to forgive for being sensitive?

Much love