Dalloway´s Recovery Journal

[Hope67]

Hi Dalloway,
Thanks for sharing your profound experience, it sounded so lovely. 
 

[dollyvee]

Hi Dalloway,

I just wanted to send support for these profound realizations that you're having 

dolly

[Dalloway]

Thank you everyone for taking the time to write something nice to me and for validating my experience.
I find it very challenging these days to navigate between pleasant and unpleasant emotions. It´s like a roller coaster ride with my eyes covered, so I can´t see what´s coming next - the up or the down. Lately I´ve been involved in different activities with different groups of people that filled me with a lot of energy. For the first time in my life I experienced real human connections and presence in the company of other people. It gave me the impression that I truly exist, that I´m not just an abstract something without borders and contours. This experience was out of this world and left me wanting for more. The more real I start to feel, the more I need to be connected to the reality. I realized that I´ve always had this need, I was born as an expectation for it. So when I started to experience it, it was as if a valve had been opened and now I yearn for more. I know that there´s huge amount of love that I´m capable of giving and receiving and that it´s always been my natural need.

[NarcKiddo]

I am so happy that you experienced real human connection. 

[Marcine]

Feeling capable of giving love and feeling deserving of receiving love... that's the greatest natural humanity... I'm so happy for you that you are directly experiencing connection.
Thank you for sharing this, Dalloway.