Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[Larry]

My appointment went ok,  going to try zoloft.  I feel good today,  and did not drink yesterday.  I am trying to get motivated this morning,  i want to take the dogs to the beach and go to the gym today. 

[Armee]

Sounds like an awesome day Larry!

[Larry]

I took the dogs for a walk and made it to the gym !   having a good day so far.  today is my 25 year anniversary,  taking the wife out to dinner tonight.

I picked up my prescription  but i am afraid to take it.  I feel like i don't need it right now,   but I know how my mood changes,  not sure what to do

[Blueberry]

Yay for the good day so far! Yay for    and congrats on 25 year anniversary!

[Larry]

thank you blueberry !   

[Larry]

The last few days have been good.  I have not had a drink in 5 days.  I only went to the gym 1 day this week.  going to try to go tomorrow.  I really want to go to a meeting in the morning.  I still have not taken any zoloft,  I feel like i can do this without meds. 

[Larry]

I had some drinks on saturday,  trying not to beat myself up ,  today is day 2.  I'm taking my wife to the doctor today.  We still do  not know how bad her liver is.  Hoping to find out more today.  I haven't been eating very well lately,  I really want to focus on my health right now

[Larry]

i am trying so hard ,  i just want to feel normal and accepted.  i am so alone right now,  and everyone else is having fun with family and friends,,,  i hate christmas

[Larry]

I feel better today,  I went to the gym,  and got some work done. 

[NarcKiddo]

I'm glad to see you are feeling better today. Well done for going to the gym and getting some work done.  Christmas is a difficult time of year for many people, me included, so I think you are doing extra well.

[Larry]

thank you narckiddo,   
  i played pickleball for the first time today,  a group play most days at our community park.  They were very accepting and were so helpful for a first timer.  I think i might have found a new group of friends ! 

[Larry]

the 988 hotline has been so hit or miss,  but i appreciate them trying.   i want to see if i can volunteer to help,  when i call ,  i feel like it would help if the other person really knew what i am dealing with.    if i am here tomorrow,   i am going to see if i can volunteer

[Armee]

That would be a great contribution Larry. I've often thought the same.  stay safe friend

[NarcKiddo]

Look after yourself, Larry.

[Larry]

doing better than expected today,  enjoying a quiet day at home.