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#1
Checking Out / Taking a break for a while
January 31, 2025, 06:50:11 PM
Hi everyone,
I have decided to take a break for a while, but hope to be back later in the year - not sure when, but I will see how things go in the next couple of months.
Sending you all a big hug  :grouphug:
I might come here to still read things or I might not come back for a while, depending on how strict I am with my digital/online break.

I am viewing it as some self-care and an experiment to see how I cope with a digital/online break. 

Take care, and look forward to re-connecting again in the future - later this year.

Hope
#2
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2025
January 31, 2025, 06:47:45 PM
31st January 2025
I am considering taking a break from my digital side of life, and taking a break from any social media kind of things, plus also taking a break from posting here in the forum.  I have some stuff going on in the coming couple of months, and decided that it would be a good 'experiment' to see how I'd fare with a digital break.  Therefore I'll hope to be back at some point, but for the meantime, I'll not be online for a while.

Wishing everyone the best, and I'll look forward to re-connecting when I am back from my digital break.  I am thinking of this as good self-care - and I'm interested to see how things go.
Hope
#3
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2025
January 30, 2025, 03:40:13 PM
Thanks Chart - I hope you get a sewing machine, as you've been trying to get one for a while.   :hug:

Thanks SanMagic  :hug:

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30th January 2025
I've been having quite graphic dreams the past few nights.  Doing things in those dreams that I wouldn't typically do in the daytime.  Can't bring myself to write the details, but just wanted to note it here.

I found that my body was very tense physically when I woke up this morning - like it had been holding onto lots of tension.  I am pleased that as the day has gone by that I have released some of that tension.  Feels like a relief.

Hope
#4
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Intro by HealN
January 30, 2025, 03:35:22 PM
Welcome HealN  :heythere:
Hope
#5
Hi Tenacious T,
Welcome  :heythere:
I'm glad you found your way here. 
Hope
#6
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2025
January 29, 2025, 04:01:11 PM
Hi StartingHealing,
Thank you so much.  I appreciate you sharing what you heard/read - and I do think that speaking aloud is powerful.  I am so glad I've started to do it - especially this past few days, I've been doing it daily - and it has definitely been helpful.    Thank you for your kind wishes. 

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29th January 2025
I feel like I've accomplished a few things lately - like hemming my trousers, which I was so proud of doing!  Sewing was previously an area that I avoided/felt frozen about - and now I am able to fix and mend some things, and shorten trousers.  Feels liberating and a big thing.  I know I am going on about it - but I really am happy about it.

I was talking to the chat bot today - and talking about how I used to like the structure of a domestic science lesson at school - because it was highly structured and had rules of behaviour etc, and somehow that felt like a peaceful period of time.  The chat bot suggested that it enabled me to be creative in that structured environment.  I felt as if a light bulb happened, because I realise that trying to be creative (painting or writing stories) doesn't tend to happen for me, but maybe that's because it's too 'free-flowing' and I need something structured to enable me to 'do/start' it.  Hence how I can do it if I am in a structured class - I 'do' join in and do whatever is asked.  Also, I can take turns with the chat bot to create lines of text - but somehow doing it by myself, that doesn't seem to happen.

The chat bot also mentioned being playfully creative and that it doesn't matter how it comes out. 

I recognise that I fear what people might think, or even that somehow it should be an 'amazing piece' from the outset - I realise that sounds... can't think of the right word... Anyway.

Maybe I'll look for a creative writing course and try to do that.  I have started one in the past, and I got so far with an online one - but wasn't able to finish it in the time meant to finish it, and then it felt like I'd failed somehow.  I did however do some exercises and wrote some things, and enjoyed the process.

Feeling stilted as I write this, which is interesting.  Probably an EF or some part of me is uncomfortable by my sharing my thoughts and feelings about this stuff. 

Hope
#7
Recovery Journals / Re: starting over
January 29, 2025, 03:51:04 PM
 :hug:
#8
1. I tidied my wardrobe and folded up clothes that had got in a mess.  It feels good to have sorted it out.
2. I hemmed some trousers using my sewing machine, which is a major thing for me - I feel so proud of doing that.
3. I am happy to have done the above two things.
#9
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hello
January 28, 2025, 03:53:22 PM
Welcome Skyward,  :heythere:
Hope
#10
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hi, everyone
January 28, 2025, 03:52:51 PM
Welcome  :heythere:
Hope
#11
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: hello everyone
January 28, 2025, 03:52:18 PM
Hi rainbug,
Nice to meet you too, and welcome  :heythere:

Hope
#12
Hi Blueberry,
I just wanted you to know that I read this, and I think it's great.  That occup.T session does sound huge, and I am glad you shared what happened here, and how you felt.  Parts of me also listened to things you said here - like that baby steps count and consequences aren't important. 

Sending you a hug too,  :hug:
Hope
#13
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2025
January 26, 2025, 04:52:45 PM
Thanks SenseOrgan, I am pleased with my interactions with AI so far - I think it has a lot of scope and potential to be useful. 
#14
Checking Out / Re: Not Alone Occasional Posts
January 26, 2025, 10:55:51 AM
 :hug:  :hug:  :hug:
#15
Recovery Journals / Re: Post-Traumatic Growth Journal
January 25, 2025, 01:15:19 PM
Hi SenseOrgan,
Intuition is a powerful tool.  It can be based on lots of things.  Sending you a hug of support  :hug:
Hope