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A couple of years ago, I was diagnosed with CPTSD by a psychiatrist, who suggested that I begin with DBT for emotional regulation. Before that, several therapists had told me I had PTSD, but it wasn't until I spoke with the psychiatrist that I understood there is a difference between the two.

Realizing this was painful, but it was also the first time I felt I had a diagnosis that truly fit my experiences. After reading more about CPTSD, I found this site and felt it might be a place where others could relate.

I haven't been able to start DBT yet because I've been moving between countries, but I'd really like to understand its impact. I'd appreciate hearing from anyone who has done DBT and how it helped (or didn't).

I've noticed something I feel embarrassed about, and I'm trying to understand it rather than judge it.

When I'm alone and very deep in thought usually replaying something embarrassing or painful. I sometimes say something out loud without intending to. This can be calling my husband's name, asking for a hug, or saying "don't leave me alone."

This has been happening for about 20 years or more. I tend to call out to whoever I'm living with or closest to at the time. It feels involuntary, and I don't have control over it in the moment. I'm not actually expecting a response from the other person it's more like something that happens until I come back to myself.

It doesn't happen in public, and I'm fully aware when it occurs. It feels automatic, almost like my body trying to interrupt emotional discomfort or rumination.

I grew up without consistent emotional support, and I wonder if this could be related to how my nervous system learned to self-soothe under stress.

A few years ago, a psychiatrist suggested this might be related to CPTSD and recommended starting with DBT for emotional regulation. Due to moving between countries, I haven't been able to follow through with consistent treatment yet.

I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar, and what helped them understand or reduce it.