I don't know what to say for today. I feel scared, frozen. I had a dream. Or more a nightmare, although I can barely connect to my emotions in it.
TW: violence————————
What I do remember is that someone was shooting at me, or trying to. And I remember bracing myself for it, for being k*lled essentially. I was protecting my m, for whatever reason, from the gun. So I put my body in front of hers. And there was this person shooting bullets at us, and until then they had missed, but I knew that eventually they will get me and I will die.
I've had many "nightmares" (I put this in quotation marks because most of them I'm unable to feel the extent of the emotions, so essentially presently they feel more like "bad dreams") but I never can connect the meaning of the emotion(s) that I'm aware to what's inside me (in my head).
I'm feeling tense, frightened and tired. I'm afraid of admitting that I'm in an EF, a part does not want to accept. I will respect that decision and will say that trauma stuff is coming back up. Scary stuff.
TW: violence————————
What I do remember is that someone was shooting at me, or trying to. And I remember bracing myself for it, for being k*lled essentially. I was protecting my m, for whatever reason, from the gun. So I put my body in front of hers. And there was this person shooting bullets at us, and until then they had missed, but I knew that eventually they will get me and I will die.
I've had many "nightmares" (I put this in quotation marks because most of them I'm unable to feel the extent of the emotions, so essentially presently they feel more like "bad dreams") but I never can connect the meaning of the emotion(s) that I'm aware to what's inside me (in my head).
I'm feeling tense, frightened and tired. I'm afraid of admitting that I'm in an EF, a part does not want to accept. I will respect that decision and will say that trauma stuff is coming back up. Scary stuff.