Memorex recovery jounral

[Hope67]

Hi Memorex,

So sorry to hear you had such an awful night - I hope that you can get a better night tonight.  Have you tried some of the u-tube videos about relaxing?  I don't know if they might help?  I also hope that your internet connection can be sorted - because then you can maybe feel a bit more in control of some aspects -  to you, if that's ok.
Hope 

[memorex]

Sad. Tired. Drained. Wish the weather would change fast.

[sanmagic7]

having lived in the desert for 16 yrs., i know how draining that heat can be.  don't forget to ingest electrolytes.  they can help.  sending love and hugs filled with uplifting spirit and cool breezes. 

[memorex]

Gosh, I couldnt cope with that heat. Ive been sure to hit the lemon juice and lots of water. Thankfully its cooled a bit today

[memorex]

Wedsnesday

INSANELY stressed by Sky customer services. Shocking. Outright insulted me. Also made comments about my ethnicity (which they were wrong about anyway).


Among todays rubbish from different staff there, after hours of calls....
Claims my net would be fixed today came and went of course. Still not working. Now my home phone isnt getting incoming calls. Some of the calls ended when rude staff refused to let me speak to any managers. Even hung up on me.

Im literally dizzy from the stress. Incapacitated. And stunned they are getting away with this. Forums show so many have complained about them but of course nothing changes. Im too exhausted to write a formal complaint. And still without net or proper phone now.

How long will this go on and will I be kept in the dark?

[memorex]

Thank GOODNESS its quite cool today. Yesterday was just *.  Still stressed from it. Still no sign of any progress of them doing ANYTHING at all.

Hope I can rest a bit today.

[memorex]

Now been told by the company they wont know anything until another five days from now. And now my phoneline is completely dead. No calls in or out. Insane.

[sanmagic7]

grrrrr!  i hate this kind of crapola.  so very frustrating.  wish there was something i could do.  just sending love and hugs to you, sweetie.

[memorex]

Really missing love and sympathy right now. So utterly emotionally exhausted.  Drunken neighbour by my bedroom window again other night at 1am loudly talking on phone. Went out to complain and the idiot mostly ignored me carrying on his call and stumbled drunkenly into me standing on my barefoot with full weight!! Still hurts.

Wrote a letter saying this is not acceptable anymore. Had nightmares about him since. I tell you, part of me wants to beat the heck out of him. I wont, but I'd love to. Next time he does stuff like that I'm contacting my letting agent and the council. I hate this town. Its full of  inconsiderate people like him.

[sanmagic7]

i can only send virtual love and sympathy, but it's from my heart.  so very sorry you have to put up with rude and inconsiderate people interrupting your night.  hate it.   

[Hope67]

Hi Memorex,
I hope that you've had a better night - and that your neighbour hasn't been disrupting it again.
Hope 

[memorex]

I am kind of shocked by his response. He shoved a typed official looking letter under my flat front door, full of name dropping of all the influential powerful people he knows. He literally made up events that didnt happen to try to claim I did things.

Thats what shocked me. The level of nastiness in it there. If he had exaggerated-that I would have expected as a tactic. But he has out and out made up stories.  Also since I had been so tolerant and considerate of him for so long.

At that point I had enough. I wrote a note back saying I dont recognize any of what he claims as it is all untrue, but was saddened he had resorted to such tactics after I had tried to spare his blushes in the previous letter. This time I would not do that and he needed to curb his alcoholism. I also stated that the next time he is banging against my bedroom window at half four in the morning because he cant stand up for drink, I will simply call the police. I also said I would do the same if he ever again makes any more lewd sexual comments to me.

I have heard nothing back - YET. I am fearful of what will happen though. I suspect nothing until he gets drunk again. I also suspect he reacted as he did, with name dropping and fantasy etc, due to sever embarrassment and desperation to control things and hide them away. He is an aide to a local politician so I suspect is terrified of these events becoming public. And thats what scares me in some ways-I dont know how extreme he is or how far he may go. I HOPE this will be the end of it

Either way, that, added to Sky now telling me it may be another five days with no net or phone, and I am very stressed.

Im also very upset today by an ex girlfriend popping up on Facebook and acting all friendly suddenly, JUST as she wants a huge favour that involves money.....

I had thought she was one of the few things from my past that wasnt so messed up...

[Hope67]

Hi Memorex,
That is horrible what you've been through with your neighbour.  I think you were brave to write back to him.
Take care
Hope

[memorex]

Busy day.

I replied to the ex telling her politely and firmly I wouldnt be able to help with that, but if she wanted something like moral support then, perhaps, that might be different.

Thats not an easy thing for me, and of course theres been fears of guilt, or not doing enough. But I think it was a good thing to do.

Downside is it has been painful with all the past memories its brought up that now seem very different to me.

Had a bit of a cry about it earlier. Its really very painful and was a very, very painful time in my life, just as everything went crazy. Anyway, I dont want to dwell on it too much at the moment.

Been into town, got shopping delivery, spoke to the idiots at sky again who offered me a pathetic amount of compensation for all the net and phone problems. The council replied regarding the neighbour so I'll be chasing that up in a day or so. Did some cooking too. Would like to say I enjoyed the cooking but wow did I find it dull! Just couldnt get into it. Oh well, Its healthy organic stuff.

Finding it hard to slow down and stop now though tbh. Its evening now where I am, but Im still in rush mode. I think Im a bit afraid to stop in case a bunch of emotions catch me unaware.

Guess I've done all I can for the day, the best I could.

[Hope67]

Sounds like you did the best you could, Memorex, and I hope you get a chance to relax a little and unwind.  I hope the emotions don't catch you up, and that you're able to cope.  Wishing you the best.
Hope