Kizzie's Journal

[Hope67]

Hi Kizzie,
Hope you're doing ok, and thinking of you.  Wishing you the best for 2023, and sending you a big hug 
Hope 

[sanmagic7]

   love and hugs, kizzie. 

[Kizzie]

Tks Hope and San!  All the best to you too

I'm still in treatment - looks like another 2-3 weeks as fiddling with my medication. It is a nice place, way better than the hospital thankfully.  I have my own room which is lovely and I go home on the weekends - very civilized.   

[sanmagic7]

hey, kizzie, sounds like you're where you need to be.  hoping they find something to help you.  all the best for this new year.  love and hugs

[Armee]

 

[Kizzie]

Tks San    and Armee 

San how is the weight management work going?  I seem to remember reading you were going to a professional for some help?

[sanmagic7]

thanks for asking, kizzie.  not a weight management pro, actually, just digging into food/eating issues w/ my T.  it's a long journey - we were both surprised at how many unhealthy messages i got about eating, and how differently i've used food (to stay up, to go to sleep, etc.) according to what was going on w/ me and/or my relationship at the time.\

lots to get thru, lots to process, more than i expected, but it's all been put on hold while i wrestle w/ rewriting my childhood narrative, feeling crappy, and grieving.  so, i'm basically doing ok, got a few insights, but haven't had time nor energy to work thru them.  later, i hope. 

[Kizzie]

Ok it's your T.  Sorry you are feeling crappy, CPTSD sucks to put it mildly.     for you.

[sanmagic7]

and i totally took over your journal w/ my last response!  so sorry.  i do hope you're beginning to feel better and your treatment is providing some positive results.  love and hugs, kizzie   

[Kizzie]

No, not to worry San you were just answering my question. 

[Kizzie]

So today is Thursday and I will be leaving this treatment centre on Tues.  I am somewhat nervous and excited at the same time but think I have my meds sorted and the tools I need. I will be attending a three day a week morning step down program (mostly virtual from home) for 10 weeks after I leave which will help, and I have an aftercare therapist in place for three months or so.  It's all free so there's something to be said for universal health care    

It has been a long awful year but think I am through the worst thankfully. Tks to all of you who so kindly supported me throughout, it meant a lot.    to each of you.   

[Armee]

 

I just felt myself breathe a huge sigh of relief that you feel you are on the upswing. I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this Kizzie. And so happy you were able to get the care you needed. 

[sanmagic7]

i echo armee, kizzie.  i'm just so glad for you.  love and hugs

[Snowdrop]

And I echo Armee and San! I'm glad you have support and you're through the worst.

[Blueberry]

Echoing everybody who posted above! 

Kizzie, based on my experience for post-inpatient care, you've got a really good plan going for when you're back home! I am so relieved for you!