Mostly out of the storm

[pelicantown]

Hi!

It's weird to be in a place where people even have the potential to understand you. I'm a writer in Canada with C-PTSD. I've been in therapy for 6+ years now, and it's gotten me far. I feel like I've healed immensely, and I feel like a different person, but as we all know, PTSD sticks with you forever... it just gets smaller and smaller as life gradually builds around it.

My C-PTSD comes from a history of grooming, abusive relationships, and parent abandonment/a narcissistic parent.

Although my former symptoms don't consume my day anymore, I feel like my C-PTSD has rewired my ability (and/or desire?) to connect with new people. It's so incredibly exhausting trying to mingle and speak to people I feel like will never understand me... I've cut people out of my life who I feel like don't remotely have the same worldview as I do...I feel like they're shallow...clouded...and I feel good about doing, but I've also realized how ruthless I am when I have to consider people I enjoy spending my time interacting with.

I also like:
- Animals (dogs especially!)
- Crafting
- Movies
- Sports
- Travel/Nature
- Music (playing and listening)
- Working out/Running

The list above keeps me sane.

PelicanTown