Hope's Journal 2026

[NarcKiddo]

I'm glad you had an enjoyable day, and that you were moved to come and record that here. Good for you. 

[Hope67]

Blueberry, Hannah, Dolly and NarcKiddo,
Thank you all so much 

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22nd October 2026
Today I am looking forward to some time to myself and the opportunity to have a foot spa at home.  It's not a big thing, just soaking my feet for about 15 minutes and doing my own kind of pedicure and then a nice lotion.  I am also going to watch something on TV at the same time.  I feel like it's a decadent thing, but I am giving myself more 'treats' in each day, and that is one of them!

I was also looking through old photographs yesterday, as a friend wanted me to look for something, and I felt like I could process things differently when I saw photos of FOO amongst the ones with friends.  I wrote some notes - things like how old I was at particular times, and how I looked in the photos - there are some where I look quite ill.  Others where I look more healthy, and I can relate to the different things going on at the time.  But previously I would have looked at them with a different perspective, and I really think that I'm more regulated now, and can see things a bit more clearly!   It didn't feel upsetting to see them either - it was more like I was able to look at it with a more detached lens, if that makes sense.

I've decided that I like this time of year - with the leaves changing colour.  Someone wrote about enjoying gardening in the light rain, and I felt like I was there too - infact, I think I might go into my own garden today and maybe look at it with fresh eyes!  But I am going to concentrate on my foot bath/spa first as I'm really looking forward to it.