the next step

[HannahOne]

Solidarity in the tough mornings. 

[TheBigBlue]

Me too - fortunately I too will see my T tomorrow.

[Chart]

My mornings are usually a labyrinth... I lay listening to the snorted breathing of the Minotaur just the other side of the stone wall.
 

[sanmagic7]

thanks for the solidarity, hannah1.  it's a rough way to start the day.

TBB, sorry to hear you're going thru it as well.  thank you for the support.  hope therapy helps us both.

chart, thanks for sharing.  i'm sending a caring hug filled w/ a giant bazooka to blow that frickin' minotaur into the next universe, where it belongs.      that's the look on its face when it sees what's coming at it. and . . . there it goes!      that's me waving good-bye to it!

whew, seems that vanquishing minotaurs first thing in the morning gets my adrenaline going!

looking forward to seeing my T, seeing what she's got in store for me and also hoping to figure out those explosive tears, what's behind them.  emotional dysregulation?  could that be a new label i can attach to my lapel?

[NarcKiddo]

Vanquishing minotaurs first thing in the morning sounds - I was going to say scary and not something I would want to do, but actually the word "empowering" popped into my brain so I shall go with that. You go, girl!

Hope the session with the T is helpful.

[Chart]

Thanks for looking out for me, San!
 

[sanmagic7]

NK, for me it was like a shot of adrenaline!  thank you so for your support.  the session w/ my T went very well.  we're in the 'getting to know you' stage.  i think she's just right for me right now.

chart, of course.  anytime, you can picture me there w/ that ol' bazooka.  happy to take him on! 

the T session was great.  didn't really get any answers for what's been driving me crazy, but maybe i don't need them right now.  i talked a lot about how my body reacts to having to always hold those emotions inside, like losing my legs, and she was amazed - never heard of anyone having that problem before.  she said she looked up alexithymia, so i think she understands it a bit more, but i also explained as best i could about how the brain parts having to do w/ emotions/feelings aren't connected.

i think she's going to be learning a lot.

i just feel calmer, which is a good thing.

also had a bit of a dust-up at the pharmacy - seems the directions for my xanax prescription went wonky, but will now be rectified.  i'll be getting more than i knew, which sent a wave of relief through me.  i've been toughing it out most of the time w/ my anxiety or some of the physical stuff, and now i can just take some meds and feel better.  that's going to be different but wonderful, i think.  like i won't have to be gritting my teeth all the time just to get thru the day.

[HannahOne]

So glad you could see the new T!     And get the medication you need.

It's positive that after talking to her you feel calmer. Sounds like she listened, even if she doesn't have answers straightaway. I know for me, just  being heard and having someone be curious to learn about the unique me can be healing.