Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[Armee]

Love right back to you Larry! Good job limiting the number of drinks. I think you're probably right, how much that helps.

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[Larry]

stessfull but good day at work,    i had 3 drinks after work.   i haven't been sleeping much,   i really want to get some sleep so i can go to the gym in the morning before work.  i don't want to take any sleeping meds,    but i really want to sleep better !

[rainydiary]

I hope that you settle into sleep soon.

[Larry]

a lady had a stroke on our snorkel boat today,   she did not make it.   we did everything we could.      spent several hours with the coast guard.    maybe tomorrow will be better.     
i had 4 drinks after work,    i really want a few more,  but i know what that will lead too.     we are so shor handed at the place i work,   i want to try therapy again,  but i don't have any days off right now.   

[Armee]

Hey Larry. That's a huge thing to go through. Hang in there. For work I got some training in critical incident stress management to help coworkers deal with traumatic on the job experiences.. in our training and in practical experience I learned that after going through something like that it's really important to burn off the adrenaline by exercising and then getting a good night's rest. Not much alcohol which will interfere with the REM sleep your brain needs to process this. I'm sorry you went through that. I'm sorry the lady didn't survive. That's really difficult to witness. Take care of yourself friend.

[rainydiary]

Thinking of you Larry - you did all you could for that person on the boat and I am glad you were there to support the best you could.  I hope you find ease.

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
I am so sorry you had to go through that experience on the boat, it sounds really challenging and difficult.  I hope you're ok, and I wanted to send you a hug of support, if that's ok 

Hope 

[Larry]

i am doing ok,   tired,  not sleepoing and working a lot.    i really need a day off.     trying to limit alcohol,    doing ok with that.      i really want to feel numb again,    so tired,    i need some sleep.   my wife is relly tired of the yelling and screaming when i do sleep.    i don't know what to do about that.      i really appreciate all of you,   maybe soon i can try to read other posts and try to offer support for others. 

[sanmagic7]

larry, have you talked to anyone about meds to help you have a more peaceful sleep?  it just sounds horrible what you and your wife go thru.  i don't doubt you're exhausted.  i also think therapy could be a big help in slaying those sleep demons.  well done on limiting your alcohol intake.  i know it's rough.  keep taking care as best you can.  love and hugs

[Larry]

i am afraid of meds,  but maybe i need to get over that.   there is a therapist in town that i want to go too.  just need to find time,   i am scheduled to work 7 days a week.   sometimes i get a day off due to weather.   things usually slow down when school starts,   just trying to hang on until then. 

[Larry]

had a good day today.   worlked all day,  had 2 drinks after work.    not sure what tomorrow will bring but i feel ready.   

[Armee]

 

[rainydiary]

Hi Larry, I hope that your schedule shifts in ways that help you feel supported.

[Larry]

i drank way more than i wanted too,  but i made it home      i am so confused,     i dont know what to do.       i really want  help...   i just dont know how right now.     i don't know what to do.   i have tried  everything...    I NEED HELP !!!!

[Armee]

 
Tomorrow will be better. Help IS available and there is more to try when you are ready. Wishing you a bit of peace tonight