Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[Larry]

thank you rainy,  i am trying to get there,  i'm not sure why i had such a hard time the other day. 
i only had 2 drinks yesterday.   not sure what i am going to do today.  my  wife stays up all night and sleeps most of the day,  kinf of bored sitting around the house. 

[Armee]

 

However you spend the day I hope it is in a way that brings you joy.

[Larry]

thank you armee !!

[Larry]

i don't even know what day it is,   around 4: 30 am,  can't sleep.    the next few days are going to be helll.  i really am trying to like christmas,  but it brings up so many things.    i really just want to sleep.  i a so tired.  i seem to have more nightmares this time of year.  should i even try to sleep ?  or ahould i just make another drink

[Armee]

Maybe you don't need to like Christmas right now. Just get through it in one piece, maybe with distraction, a nice trip somewhere, over exercising etc. It must be so hard to have the holiday so closely tied to your trauma because it is everywhere you turn and everyone wants to wish you a merry one. I'm sorry Larry. 

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

I'm sorry this time is so difficult for you. There's so much pressure on everyone this time of year to be this idea of a family and a lot of us didn't have a family like that.

Maybe your wife and you can start your own Christmas tradition that makes the holiday your own? Something for you two that doesn't matter to anyone else, just what makes you feel good?

Thinking about you over this time 

dolly

[Larry]

thank you so much armee and dolly,   i am so glad to have found both of you.  you both always say just what i need to hear, 

[Armee]

 

Thinking of you out here, Larry. Hang in there and be gentle with yourself.

[Larry]

thank you armee,  i hope you have a great weekend !

[dollyvee]

 

[Larry]

thank you dolly,  i nedeed that

[Larry]

i drank way too much last night,  i had to work this morning,  sitting at home ,  i don't know what to do.  i am lonely and bored,  but i don't want to drink.  i would sleep if i could. 

[Armee]

Maybe a nice long walk before or in between drinks?

[rainydiary]

Larry, I haven't commented much this week but have been here with you.  I am wishing you a gentle rest of the day and weekend. 

[dollyvee]

Anytime Larry I hope you find something calming to do  :hug:i