More Concrete Steps, More Therapy Homework

Blueberry · September 01, 2024, 10:53:26 AM

Unfortunately, I haven't been doing well on that front this weekend, rainy. I hope things have been better for you.

Desert Flower · September 02, 2024, 05:53:23 PM

Hi Blueberry, I hope you are feeling a little better.

Quote from: Blueberry on August 26, 2024, 07:37:20 AMThank you Desert Flower, it's good to feel not alone with a symptom, somebody else understands though I'm sorry you understand because that means you have it too

I just wanted to clarify that I do know this fatigue very well. For twenty something years, every two months or so, I would be bedridden for a week or so, I thought I had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. In addition, I would have migraines, painful joints and back, allergies, etc. etc. And then, I got Long-covid, which consisted of all these symptoms together.
But then three years ago, at some point, it dawned on me that all of this was psychosomatic (I'm not saying it is for you) and all of this has vanished. And for me (I'm not saying this would work for everyone) the key was to acknowledge my feelings, my fears, my emotions. And this cleared up all my physical symptoms. So now, I'm mostly dealing with anxiety, instead of fatigue etc. And dealing with the anxiety can be daunting as well. But I do believe it should be called progress. Like I said, just wanted to clear up that I do not have the fatigue any more. And it's not meant to say anything about you. I do wish you all the best. A hug if that's okay.

Hope67 · September 02, 2024, 05:57:13 PM

to you Blueberry.

Blueberry · May 21, 2025, 10:24:58 PM

I have been working on a few concrete steps today, did get a few things off my (partially difficult) To Do list. Done a few bits from my occupational therapy homework today and yesterday. That's good because part of said homework is doing bit-by-bit, trying to get into the habit of X every time I come into a specific room. But also self-acceptance in case that doesn't pan out.

I'm also working on resolution of a couple of conflicts, neither of which are totally recent (but not FOO either), which is taxing. In one case it's a type of conflict that has come up before in my life and it's good that I now feel the wherewithal to look at it and discuss with affected person and see how I can better manage my triggered emotions, whereas up until recently that would have been unthinkable. Not just unthinkable but impossible for my emotions, with intrusive thoughts, feelings, memories and no wherewithal to step back and consider: What is going on in me?

So big process

Not just for hopefully a resolution or at least calming down the triggering in this case but also growth, healing in general, hopefully make me less triggered in this type of situation going forwards.

The other conflict which I'm trying to wrap my head around (on my Mbr Journal for those who follow it) - as I work through it with people who are not quite so good at seeing their side of the issue or even a reason to mention conflict at all (sigh) - that will bring growth too, but probably also heartache. But anyway, I'm on it at least. So concrete steps

sanmagic7 · May 22, 2025, 02:16:22 PM

concrete steps, indeed, blueberry. (and i love the word 'wherewithal'). i'm so glad for you that you are able to see the progress you've been making. love and hugs

Blueberry · May 22, 2025, 07:06:51 PM

Thank you san

More steps dealt with this morning so that finally, finally a what-would-you-call it is going to happen next week. Somebody is coming to help me with household stuff for a couple of hours and it is paid by health insurance not me. Plus I don't have to ask in my circle of acquaintances where nobody has the capacity and doesn't want my money anyway. This is only happening because I got on the phone myself and called a bunch of providers till I found capacity somewhere, which health insurance didn't find. Kudos to me

Also set process in motion to hopefully get ortho doc to apply to my health insurance for one more session of housework help. Ortho doc has to sign for it being necessary. It is. My feet and legs are very painful and super exhausted atm too.

afterwards for couple of hours. Allowing myself this is part of occupational therapy homework plus good self-care.

From something set in motion last week - the answer was in my letter box this evening - dealt with, nothing left to do! And with that being the case €115 saved this year and again next year.

Have been listening to favourite CDs a bit the last couple of days, something good - a form of self-care - but with which I've been having a lot of trouble doing for 2 years now. So

Hope67 · May 23, 2025, 12:11:51 PM

Just adding some of these

it is inspiring to read your progress in all these areas of your life. Really good. Sending you a hug

sanmagic7 · May 23, 2025, 02:19:00 PM

i'll add a few more, blueberry!

so many things you're doing for yourself in a good way, and very glad to hear you got help w/ housework. that's great! i absolutely love hearing about you taking care of yourself and allowing it. love and hugs

Blueberry · May 23, 2025, 02:20:46 PM

Quote from: Blueberry on May 22, 2025, 07:06:51 PMAlso set process in motion to hopefully get ortho doc to apply to my health insurance for one more session of housework help. Ortho doc has to sign for it being necessary. ...

afterwards for couple of hours. Allowing myself this is part of occupational therapy homework plus good self-care.

From something set in motion last week - the answer was in my letter box this evening - dealt with, nothing left to do! ...

Have been listening to favourite CDs a bit the last couple of days, something good - a form of self-care - but with which I've been having a lot of trouble doing for 2 years now.

All of this either ditto today or accomplished and further steps are ongoing. Like ortho doc has signed application and I've already scanned and forwarded elsewhere

Something set in motion Wed or Thurs - the answer came by email today. It was a 'No, not till mid June' but at least I know I need a different solution and have the wherewithal to have already started looking for it!

I managed to cook up some left-overs + new veg today too, which feels good.

I've had two rests already today, including one where I just didn't get up for a while, but I knew while doing it that it wasn't a case of depression or hide-under-the-blanket for the morning but that I quite frankly needed some more rest before I got up, which is self-care.
After getting a taxi in and out of town and running 3 important errands in town, I came home and had a lie down with music. I didn't sleep much, but just rested including with raised leg, and worked a little on relaxing my body, just by noticing there was a bit of tension here and there and reminding myself to let it go and then noticing a more relaxed feeling in that spot.

Quote from: Hope67 on May 23, 2025, 12:11:51 PMJust adding some of these it is inspiring to read your progress in all these areas of your life. Really good. Sending you a hug

Thank you so much Hope!

I read in one of your posts from yesterday that you have made a lot of progress recently too and I was very happy for you that that is the case.

Hope67 · May 23, 2025, 02:37:56 PM

sanmagic7 · May 24, 2025, 01:02:42 PM

Blueberry, i was so glad to read that you were able to distinguish the idea that your added rest was, indeed, self-care. i think that's an important step, something we all can use, but, unfortunately, it's too often lost to us. and the idea of resting, releasing tension, wow! that's something i'd like to utilize for myself more often. thanks for the reminder. i carry too much tension on a regular basis. that would be a good thing for me to do, i know. i want to keep your example in mind. so glad for you, whether it's just for today, or it becomes a regular habit eventually, it's a great start. love and hugs