Activating myself

[Blueberry]

I've decided that for the moment activating myself seems a good step to try for. It could be a fairly low-key activity. Often it would undoubtedly be sensible and useful to try for a physical activity, even though that too can be very low-key. Not exercises, not sport but just e.g. bringing the communal wheelie bins back in and gritting the frozen drive, as I have done this morning.

Other examples will be in my Recovery Journals (beneficial things, concrete things, the easiest activity among beneficial activities etc.) What I have also done this morning is start cleaning up in the kitchen, which is very overdue. But I have started.

[sanmagic7]

and congrats to you, blueberry, for starting.  that's the first step for everything, isn't it?  i like the idea of 'activating'.  it's not a passive word at all, and i think that speaks to a change in mindset somehow.  best to you - one step at a time, ok?  love and hugs

[NarcKiddo]

Good for you.
 

[SenseOrgan]

But I have started.

Small things can be big. I hope that makes sense. 

[Armee]

 

Welcome to a new journal and a promising new approach! I agree that with dissociation activation is so much a huge huge key. I wonder if singing is an activator for you?

[Blueberry]

But I have started.

Small things can be big. I hope that makes sense. 

It does, yes, thank you!

Somehow I didn't even realise that I put this on Recovery Journals! But that's good because I retain more of the "just for now, just for today, just for 24 hours" sorta thing. In my mind, it was more a thing for Lent rather than my doing an act of kindness to myself every day, which I have done in other years.

Now with trying to activate myself in some way daily, it feels like I'm adding something rather than restricting myself. Restricting myself feels triggering and is just not easy to do for a week never mind the whole of Lent.

[Blueberry]

I agree that with dissociation activation is so much a huge huge key.

Thanks for the validation! I hadn't even thought of that, in so many words. (Thank you for giving me words for what's going on within me.)

I wonder if singing is an activator for you?

If I were to sing, even just a line or two or a snatch of something, that would definitely be a form of activation. So would going to choir practice or even church. Singing is not easy atm, not sort of dropping into my lap sort of thing. Yesterday an exercise from voice lessons suddenly dropped into my mind, so that was something I suppose.

I'm not sure what your question means though. Are you wondering if I were to sing, if that would further activate me? I don't know about that, for the moment it would be putting the bar too high and in a way it would be kind of sneaky and likely to set off an inner child/teen making one of them feel coerced. I don't want to wake up anything like that atm.

[HannahOne]

Hooray for activation! 
I've recently joined a gym while doing PT and it is making a big difference. Being grounded in the here and now, the body, while music plays, and with others in the same space. Here's to forty days of active living!