Vent about psych doc

[Blueberry]

I know that somewhere on here there's a thread entitled something like "What I'd like certain people to know about cptsd" and I'd really like to write on it, but can't find it.

I was trying to explain to psych doc today why I really need a prescription for occupational therapy at home. I was reading to him what I'd already written about the topic for other audiences including on here. Most of that's on my Mbr Journal. To recap: I've been in OT for a long time now and have started processing trauma on my own but with my OT holding a safe space for me and helping me with slightly technical and/or practical stuff with my hands if I get stuck, which then gives me the space to work directly with whichever Inner Child on the trauma topic that's coming up. I was giving some examples of what came up during a particular trauma processing session, namely Inner Child's fear of violence.

Then came a question from psych doc: "Why do you go back into all this past stuff?" I was able to say right away that not processing it leads to constant exhaustion and paralyses me in my daily life.

I just can't believe that psych doc (who is generally OK) and who had a fairly high up position in the inpatient place I've been in twice for trauma therapy within the last 5 years would come up with such an inane idea!! How on earth am I meant to ignore this past stuff and/or not try to process and integrate it when it causes SUCH exhaustion in my daily life and makes so many quite normal activities SO exhausting?             Grrr.

[sanmagic7]

 

along w/ that frickin' anger towards that psych doc's uninformed and insensitive question is a profound *sigh*.  it just doesn't end, does it blueberry.  you'd think there's enough info out there just from ptsd and what's needed to help with that in order for it to be lessened or done away with that someone high up enough in the field would be informed and understand one of the most basic tenets of trauma healing:  if the root isn't destroyed, the trauma continues to flourish.

i hope you got your prescription even so.  this OT seems to be helping you so very much, and i'd like to see it continue for you.  love and hugs

[Blueberry]

Thank you san so much! Also for adding    Don't know how I managed to forget about its existence.





I got the usual prescription for OT in his practice, but psych doc does want OT to phone him and explain from his pov. That does give me some hope at least. Though OT did write a whole long report for psych doc once at psych doc's request and a few months later I could tell that all psych doc had understood or retained was that OT helps keep me stabilised and helps me structure my day or my week.   Noooo      Together OT and I do far more than that. I can't remember how I reacted at the time, certainly didn't snort or say that OT and I do more and even other stuff.

Worse, psych doc is the best of a not very good bunch of psychiatrists and similar around here. I mean at least he doesn't question cptsd and at least he's willing to send me off into inpatient therapy from time to time, and a few other things like that.

Anyway, I'm all ranted/vented out and I think I'll go and potter round the garden a bit, in the 

Thank you so much san for your support  

[Kizzie]

OMG, I cannot believe a psych said this!!!  I had an anesthesiologist say almost the same thing to me when I had a knee replacement a few years back and I was livid (inside).  Outwardly, like you I explained it yet again to someone who should know more about trauma. Yeesh, just yeesh   

I guess I can believe it as I experienced this myself and I've read this same sort of thing here a lot. It's why I'm working on a project to inform those in healthcare about Complex Relational Trauma and CPTSD. When it's done you can give them the link to read the booklet online and there will be a download as well.

I hope you enjoyed the garden   

[Blueberry]

Thank you for words and emotions of support, Kizzie! That helps.

Being in the garden pulling up weeds etc was helpful. Gives the energy that comes up with the anger somewhere to go so that I'm feeling calmer and the physical pains have lessened. Also the feeling that my throat was all clogged up is reduced. I really thought about the garden instead while I was down there and enjoyed my work as well as seeing the flowers and later seeing the difference I had made (even if LL is unlikely to see the difference). 

[sanmagic7]

yeah, well poo on LL and poo on that shrink!  i'm very glad you have the garden and weeds as a place to get rid of some of the toxic waste from what you experienced.  i've found nature to be a wonderful place to absorb it for us w/o detriment to itself.

once, on the emdr forum, i read T's talking about how, when their trauma clients weren't making any 'progress', they felt like dropping them, as if they were wasting the T's time.  i wrote about how, even tho i wasn't 'processing' anything each session, just the fact that i was able to talk to my T helped stabilize me, and that such a thing was extremely important. plus all the other factors that go along w/ those OT visits for you - i hope your OT can talk to that psych about that, too.  at any rate, i'm glad you got the Rx for OT again.  there are so many day-to-day things which need to be done, which you're getting help with - i don't know, this is close to my heart cuz i wouldn't be able to do a lot of things w/o my D helping me, or even doing them for me at times.  very glad for you, blueberry, but so angry you have to be belittled like this.  ugh!  love and hugs