Healing journal (tw) Angering / strong emotions

[Chart]

Thanks SH! Will keep you posted on what I experience.
Hugs!

[StartingHealing]

You are most welcome Chart. DMSO is some good stuff as well.   

I really am starting to think that sulfur should be considered to be a essential mineral like magnesium.  DMSO moves sulfur into the body, the horse juice has it as well in the form of MSM, and way back in the day, it was common for folks to go drive an hour one way to get to an artisan spring and drink the water from it that was high in sulfur when things were starting to hurt, help with arthritis, etc.   Maybe I'm missing the mark.  Maybe it's not the sulfur per se, maybe it's repair / rebuild that can only happen when there is sufficient sulfur available as a catalyst?  If memory serves, there is a pre or pro biotic that produces sulfur compounds.   


May 3, 2025 

Had to many tipples last night. Total number wasn't that high which is good because that means low tolerance.  Didn't get sloppy with it however the depressive effects of the alcohol is still very evident this morning.

Another side effect for me is that the emotions run high as well.  It ties into other things as well.  Been puzzling over a direction?  a goal? a something, anything to get a bearing on.

 I've expanded serious effort over many years to be competent in things.  Still feels like I need to get 'better' at the financial aspects of things.  Then again, that is also a pattern that I've recognized and am changing that pattern.  Need to get to the don't spend before cash is in hand point.  That said I've also been doing more with physical cash instead of the debit card. 

At the place I'm at now, really wondering about the heading I would like to go next.  I realize that I'm still in the recover / rebuild stage of things and that for me personally, there are some large ticket items that if in my possession would help things along a great deal on a personal level.  I have two vehicles currently.  Neither are be suitable for a day trip let alone a road trip.  Have been attempting to save up the shekels for a vehicle that would be able to do road trips. I have a brother from another mother that's 3 - 3 1\2 hour drive away that I'd like to be able to visit.  There are 'points of interest' in the larger geographic area that I reside in that I'd like to go see what's up.  For more fun traveling I'd like a motorcycle.  Been a while since I had one.  Would be really cool to take some trips on a cycle.  Pack along the 35mm film camera and state highways only.  No interstates.  Document the people, places, things on film.  Really be able to experience differing areas and then make a physical book out of the photographs with blurbs of where, when, etc.  Just for my own self.

There's also thoughts about legacy that pings my attention from time to time.  Maybe that's because of my gender or something.  I realized a while ago that even if someone was doing genealogy at some point in the future and my data pops up as a dead branch of the family tree, they ain't gonna care.

The adoptive fam, the nephews, nieces, they don't care now so why they gonna care later?  I've reached out many times and .. it is what it is. It does suck but it's understandable.  I was mr incognito due to becoming isolated from family by the former spouse. 

Other things in IRL to get did. 

Wishing all here, all the best

[Chart]

Wow that's a synchronized thoughts-state... I'm fantasizing about driving up to Copenhagen in August in my truck... the "family" is acting majorly retarded on my end. Been on the phone "politely" ripping my dad to shreds... poor guy is the one everybody else makes deal with me... my x is being her usual narcissistic self with my daughter... ok, well maybe not everything is in tune between us... but funny, I did have another good look at the '87 D150 images I pulled up awhile back (when I hadn't a clue what the heck you were talking about :-) The window's been open on my browser with the photos ever since... had another close look today, beautiful machine actually... has some serious personality... funny don't know why just drew me...