phoebes, we don't all have families. maybe it seems that way at times looking at others as they're walking in the mall or something, but it's really not true. i've given up so much family over the years, both foo and the ones that i created. it's heartbreaking, really, but they were killing me.
my daughter and ex have been in therapy for about 30 yrs., each, and they still refused to do the work, to be honest about their issues, to break through and admit to the awfulness of what they'd perpetrated upon me. some people are just too damaged and will never 'get' it. they simply may not be capable of it, for whatever reason.
personally, i'm glad for you that you have made it through, that you are walking the walk, and that you were able to love yourself enough to let go of the poison those people were feeding you. i know it's sad - it broke my heart to go nc with my firstborn daughter, and i wish it could be otherwise - but i have other people in my life who care about me (my other daughter and my hub) and it was hurting them, too, to watch me get emotionally beaten every time i turned around.
it's very sad that we can't have the families we wanted. i share in your grief. big hug.
my daughter and ex have been in therapy for about 30 yrs., each, and they still refused to do the work, to be honest about their issues, to break through and admit to the awfulness of what they'd perpetrated upon me. some people are just too damaged and will never 'get' it. they simply may not be capable of it, for whatever reason.
personally, i'm glad for you that you have made it through, that you are walking the walk, and that you were able to love yourself enough to let go of the poison those people were feeding you. i know it's sad - it broke my heart to go nc with my firstborn daughter, and i wish it could be otherwise - but i have other people in my life who care about me (my other daughter and my hub) and it was hurting them, too, to watch me get emotionally beaten every time i turned around.
it's very sad that we can't have the families we wanted. i share in your grief. big hug.