Hello

[whatissafety]

 Hello,
i am a person who has cptsd, it sucks. i had a * childhood with violent parent and a then marrie a man with a mental illness then divorced him and married somone with npd, i am seperated from him (he is not happy with me). so after 44 years of living with people who abused me i am now on my own and scared all the time. I put on a coping face when my kids are home but mostly i am just scared. last year i sat on the lounge room florr for six months then started counselling i had a severe reaction to all the medication so i cant even fake it till i make it. it is nice to have a name for how i feel rather than just thinking i am really f..d up. i dont know if this forom will help but it will give me something to do on nights like tonight when sleep is never going to happen.

[Trees]

Welcome, whatissafety.  You have survived so much abuse, and none of it was your fault.  It is so hard to wake up to the truth that people who were supposed to love and protect you actually did just the opposite.  Coping through all the pain and fear, it takes so much energy and so much courage.  You are very courageously trying to protect your children.

We are people like you, trying to cope with the effects of long-term abuse.  This site is meant to be a safe place for us to share support and information with each other. 

You deserve safety.  You deserve freedom from pain and fear.  I hope you will find a bit of safety here on this site.  Big hugs to you.   

[Kizzie]

Hi and  warm welcome to OOTS whatissafety  As Trees suggests you deserve to feel safe and hopefully you will find that here and then IRL as you begin to recover.  Having CPTSD does suck, couldn't agree more - but you are not alone with it any more.  We all understand what it's like to deal with all the pain and fear so feel free to share once you feel comfortable doing so, it can help a lot.