My Story Episode 1-Trigger Warning

[pokefan94]

I am a thirty one year old woman who has no contact with my family. I had a very tumultuous childhood. My parents divorced when I was two and my sister was one. I went with my father and my sister went with my mother. I don't remember much from this time period. It was just my father and I. We lived with my grandmother and I remember being happy.

My dad then met my step mom and they were married shortly after. We then all moved into a home together. At first everything was fine but then I noticed that she started to act differently when my dad was not home. There was always this sense of tension like I was going to be yelled at any second. I remember vividly one morning trying to make no noise as I made my breakfast. This is how most mornings went. 

My dad worked a lot and I was often times left alone with my step mom and her two kids. Things gradually got worse. I remember this time, I must have been in fourth or fifth grade. My stepmother was angry with me for having greasy hair. She went to great lengths to try to fix this. I had to blow dry my hair each night and she would check it to make sure I had done it right. One evening she was so upset that my hair was still greasy she dragged me by my hair to the shower. Furiously scrubbed my hair and then proceeded to walk me around the house ,in my towel, to my siblings rooms to ask them if they thought my hair was clean.

I think what hurts me the most is that my birth mom knew about all of this. I told her over and over what was going on when I saw her on the weekends. She would always tell me that we had to wait until I was old enough so I could decide that I wanted to live with her instead. However, my sister was mistreated once by my stepmother and my mother freaked out. Threatened her and my stepmother never touched her again.

I just don't understand a lot of it even now but I'm working through it.

[Kizzie]

Hi and a warm welcome to Out of the Storm Pokefan! 

I am so sorry your M and SM did not give you the love, support and safety you deserved. Having one be abusive and the other abandon you is a double whammy of betrayal. Did your F and GM know what was going on?

I hope it helps you to figure things out by being here and having the support of members to do so.

Kizzie