Letter to self / abusers?

[Forestmistheather]

Hi,

So I've been tasked this week with writing a letter to my younger self and my parents (just some of my abusers).  I can't get started with the letter to myself and I'm not sure why tbh.  I've written a letter to my mum, and I was really surprised by my reaction as I'm usually completely numb.  But I was quite tearful, and ended up having bad dreams about her all night, then have been really tearful again today.  Has anyone else done this sort of thing and how have you found it?  Did you find writing to yourself easy or hard?  Did you find it useful?  If so, how?

Thanks,

[TheBigBlue]

I've written a "letter to never be sent" to my NF. I was tearful and sad, but it felt like my younger self got some space, and it was validating to put into words that I deserved better.

I've also written a letter to my parts. I was sobbing very hard, but afterwards I felt some relief — almost like the cleansing effect of a good cry (not sure if that resonates with you).

It's been a while since I wrote latter, and more has come up since. Just yesterday I was thinking I might write another one, but I haven't quite found the courage yet to start.

And interestingly, I feel completely unable — at least for now — to write a letter (even an unsent one) to my enmeshed M. It just feels too complex at the moment.

So for me, it's definitely not easy, and the reactions can be strong. What you describe — the tears and the dreams — makes a lot of sense to me.

I hope some of this helps a bit. 💛

[Forestmistheather]

Thanks TheBigBlue, it does help