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[Senghi]

Dear all,
My therapist mentioned i seek peer trauma survivors and today i heard about OOTS in a podcast. I am a middle aged woman from the Netherlands and at this moment not working at my job as a physiotherapist because cptsd burnt me out (short version).

From the age of 7 to 10, my grandfather sexually abused me and it was the beginning of a difficult, detached end shameful childhood where i was bullied in school and emotionally neglected by my n. mother and co-dep father.

Lots of different kinds of therapy in different stages of my life, the most recent being psychedelic assisted therapy and IFS therapy. I actually didn't expect any therapy to make any differencr anymore but lately i am noticing there is some sort of life and light emerging between the dense dark 'nothingness' my life has always felt like.

I hope to meet you here somewhere, in this precious wonderful OOTS

[Alexandra]

Hello ; Welcome Senghi; I know how hard it can be to post your story here, good that you did ,You are not alone, I have C-PTSD, I find it helpful to me ,to know there are other people, who know what I am dealing with as they are dealing with the same issues ,as well. Your grandfather had no right to sexually abuse you, I am so sorry that you went through that horrible experience , you had a right to a safe childhood, a right your grandfather ,and your parents took from you.

[Moondance]

  Senghi,

I am very sorry for what got you here but extremely glad you made it here.

A warm welcome to you!

[Marcine]

Hi Senghi,
Nice to meet you. I have found this forum to be a safe haven with kind and intelligent people. The resources to explore here are incredible. I hope you feel comfortable and welcome!