This Has Nothing to Do with CPTSD

[HannahOne]

Love to read everyone's joy. Interesting that so many of us find joy in using our bodies in ways that give us a sense of movement, freedom, or groundedness.

That's how it is for me:

Horseback riding. The horse's legs are my legs. I'm a centaur!

When I was younger, long-distance running. Felt like flying.

Now, I love kayaking. I get to be a duck!

Hiking, especially in the desert and high desert. Red rocks light me up.

And, music, which is a different kind of movement and freedom. It also engages the body, into dance! I've signed up to take ballet this summer. In my youth, I studied belly dance, balaldi, mainly Egyptian style. I've recently started making playlists again and make sure to listen at least an hour a day.

And, animals. Animals are animated, they have movement and freedom, and an _anima_, a soul. Being with a being that is not a human being shifts my state into something without words, and it brings me so much connection and joy!

[SenseOrgan]

Sorry to disappear on you for a bit friends.

Came here to say the man is a force of nature! Irresistible good vibes. 


Shimza | Boiler Room x Ballantine's True Music 10: Johannesburg

[SenseOrgan]

Doing the dishes dancing with Caiiro🕺🏽

Caiiro at U'R

[sanmagic7]

SO, thanks for this.  even after all these years, i'm till pretty stuck in my trauma.  I've only gotten acquainted with EF's in the past few months - i'm sure i've been in them before but only realizing them now.

and my anxiety keeps me frozen yet from things i used to do, but, yes, body movement - i've only just gotten back into walking outdoors in the mornings, mostly, love the freshness of the air, and am back to lifting weights, which i did in my 30's and have only recently been able to actually have enough physical energy to begin again.  it's been a change since i've gotten older and have had to re-calibrate myself, so to speak, but i do love to feel the warmth in my muscles after finishing a few sets.

and gardening is where my heart blooms.  i've got some tomato plants in pots right now, cuz i'm in an apt. and have to makeshift a garden of sorts, but they're still green and growing, and they're my babies.  i'm looking to put some spring bulbs in some ground near my bedroom window where bushes used to be.  i got a few while in bloom during the spring, so hoping the bulbs themselves will decide it's worth it to struggle up thru the soil next spring after i plant them in the bare patch come fall.

little by little, at least some of it is coming back.  and it feels so much better.