Triggering event: our cat's illness

[Teddy bear]

Hello everyone,

I am feeling very exhausted now: our young cat is sick with not fully understood symptoms: the vet prescribed X-rays.

This situation with a pet illness is very triggering for me, and also seems to be used as a tool to bind me to parents by themselves.
Also their illnesses have the same purpose, and my own health and any problems with it.

I am not sure if I'm clear enough in expressing how I feel: burned out, trapped and expecting some more unpleasant and exhausting interventions tomorrow: will be visiting another vet clinic.

Apart from that, my father I think was quite heartless in telling how cat can have such health problems?!
I e he seems to have no empathy to the cat.

And mother in the morning was neglecting the cat and the situation, which really requires actions.
(This cat was taken from neighbours as a kitten by mother, as she wanted to have a cat.
But it seems she doesn't want to care about her: frequently forgets to give antihelmintics etc).

I feel worried about my dog, as it seems I can't rely on these people.
And I wanted to take my dog to live with me last year, but finally didn't do that: I was not sure if I could manage taking care, walking, feeding properly. Not enough money currently and the dog is not socialised for a big city.

I feel depend and codependent in these relationships that seem quite dysfunctional and the parents seem to me quite personality disordered.
But I can't leave right now. Again money issues and I just can't work full-time on a neuroleptic I am still taking.

Probably some light in the end of the tunnel though:
Another attempt to find a doctor to taper off that medication: seems I've found someone, but didn't have an appointment with him yet. Don't want it to be another disappointment.

Hope to find the cause why the cat is sick, and she'll be better soon