Therapy directly on a core/primal wound

[NarcKiddo]

The reason behind my self-acceptance: when I am able, I will do it. OR possibly if it were the most useful method atm, I would be doing it.

It seems like you are on to something here, Blueberry. It certainly resonates with me. I, too, am aware of all these different methods and suggestions and whatnot. I've tried several, but in many cases I just end up feeling nonplussed, and that I am somehow deficient when they don't really work for me. And then I think perhaps I should persevere and that just gives more scope for self-criticism. It sounds like this is a bit like what you have been feeling.

When something actually is helpful for me it feels right pretty much from the get go. Maybe not completely right because it's new but if there is some kernel of instant relief then I know it may be worth pursuing. And that knowledge is not intellectual - it is emotional. My logical brain can tell me endlessly that meditation would help if I only did it enough - but the fact remains that for me, right now, it simply doesn't. That is not to say that it would not help in the future so I think it is always worth revisiting things from time to time (unless they were actively repellant last time) in case the internal situation has shifted.

Your radical self-acceptance sounds like really solid progress, Blueberry. 

[Hope67]

 

[sanmagic7]

blueberry, brilliant!  i so agree, and so very glad you were able to come to that realization.  i think it's a fundamental truth, not very easy to come by, but major when it's discovered.  well done!     love and hugs