My Family Doesn't Care About Me

[BlueMoon_]

Just finished visiting my aunt with my mom. I want to go NC with my mom but I was kinda testing my aunt to decide if I want to maintain contact with her or not. She has never been overtly cruel like my mom but we don't have much of a relationship.

I realized throughout the day that they treated me like I was some inanimate object. My aunt often talked to my mom like I wasn't there. I initiated some talking with her, which she returned, but she never initiated talking with me, or asked me about my life or my hobbies or whatever.

And then when we left, my mom driving me home, she didn't even ask me what was my favorite part of the day or anything like that.

It's disheartening to realize all my close family members don't really take an interest in me the way I crave, or know me on a deep level.

No one really knows me truly. And it's hard to make sense of why they don't try to.