My Introduction

[Malbear4]

Hi there,

I wanted to join this group as I have been through over a decade of different trauma scenarios, at this point I am 21. My first solid memory of life is witnessing physical abuse, I have also been subject to Emotional abuse, Sexual abuse, Psychological abuse, Neglect, Relational abuse, Substance abuse and I have been physically abused myself later on in my life. Due to growing up in such a warped reality from a young age I could not tell that what I was living through was not normal until more recently in life. As of right now I am in a healthy and stable relationship with a partner I wouldn't change for the slightest, that doesn't mean I don't have rough days though, there are many days my head feels like it could split into two, where everything is too much and getting out of bed seems impossible, thoughts race wildly or not at all and I feel completely isolated. However what I've realised is everything I've experienced has taught me to be everything it's not, I am the opposite manifestation of my trauma and I will become stronger than it.

[Kizzie]

Hi and a warm welcome to OOTS Malbear  I am so sorry for all that you have been through and are struggling with.  One thing I can say is that because you are so young combined with your attitude toward becoming healthier you stand a really good chance of getting there long before the CPTSD sets in more deeply and it becomes a long journey out of it. When this forum started 11 years ago most members were much older because CPTSD was not really known about. Now it is, there is a lot of research and clinicians are seeking out education and training more than ever.

So, all that to say I hope your efforts, including being here will help your recovery and the bad days will lessen.