chronic misgendering, having my identity denied

[geckoskittlezx7900338]

am i just over-reacting/ being paranoid or is this valid?
-homeless people asking me to buy them food (they think im fat)
-supported living giving me loads of food (they think im fat)
-youtube commenter pointing on my insecurities, another one telling me to get a boyfriend and did not believe me at all when I told them I'm an asexual transgender male with autism (I was so upset)
-letter in the mail "Margaret Mancini" metro concessionary card (how the * does anonymous entity know my address?)
-womens hand cream sent via post during christmas (utterly devastated)
-compliments about female beauty and vitality and articulateness etc more than any other kind of compliment
-finding litter in my garden such as dead birds (woman that commits suicide), tattered dresses (femme fatale), and food I happen to hate such as cheese and onion crisps or aldi bread (again, FAT)
-music recommendations that werent my tastes eg Girls aloud

AND NOW THINGIE CALLED ME, IN ORDER TO BUY A NEW HOUSE I HAVE TO HAVE 3 MONTHS IN ADVANCE (MY EVICTION NOTICE IS IN LESS THAN A MONTH) IVE GOT POOR PLANNING SKILLS WHICH IM SO INSECURE ABOUT
like literally anything that is typical of myself at all I really do not like
I AM A REALLY REALLY REALLY IMPULSIVE EXTRAVERTED SENSATION DOMINANT

I doubt  therapy will cure this.

the more time progresses the less people will conceive of reality, except myself
the more time progresses the more it would be deemed dramatic of me to complain and make a fuss about anything at all
the more time progresses the more it will be evident to literally all entitities I want to be loved, more than anythign else

[geckoskittlezx7900338]

identity dysphoria:
-weight gain
-oversharing
-long windedness
-saying dumb things without thinking
-poor foresight of the consequences of their actions, makes a problem worse for themselves
-tries to dress a certain way but looks like a poser
-cowardice
-plump, red cheeks
-selfishness
-being aggressive but in a * ugly weak counter-productive way

[Kizzie]

Gecko, maybe you could come up with a list of things you like about yourself now.  I and many others here know how hard that is, but it can really counterbalance the Inner Critic. I know once I started doing it I would catch myself being critical of myself and then saying, "that's not true!" to myself.   Eventually I was able to say "I am a decent, loving human being and in no way do I compare to those who abused me, not even close." That's when I started becoming more comfortable in my own skin.