Three Good Things Today - Part 10

[Matilda2]

1. I had food poverty for a while. There is enough for kid, but not for me. Especially if I do something extra for kid. Like a birthday present.  We have a place where you can get free food. If you need it. It is like a tiny supermarket. But the food is donated and often a day over date. Or with small spots. Or a brand they get rid off. Or whatever. I cried in the supermarket. I came back with two big bags of food. Enough for a week. That is more than I had for a long time. I ate dry rice very often lately. I can shop there every week.

2. I am happy that I can openly cry. The supermarket lady comforted me. And said many cry there. Maybe it is weird. But it is so freeing. I was never allowed to express myself. So I couldn't connect. Now I can be me. At home I needed a mask, but in the world I can just feel and be. Many people are so much safer than my family.

3. I came back. I had to walk for two hours with big bags. Nobody offered help. Big grown men walking past me. Not helping. But the last few meters my little neighbour girl of 8 or so years old asked me: "miss, can I help?" I said it was too heavy. But she proudly said: "no miss, I can do it." I praised her for her kindness. How sweet is that. They are part of a minority. Visibly (black, little girls wearing a headscarf). Many here look down on them. But she was one to see I struggled and care. How sweet is that. I thought of the story of the Good Samaritan.

I also thought of my brothers. They shout how loving they are. Unconditionally loving. But they spend tons on fancy designer clothes. For their baby. When their sis can't eat. They don't even care. I had to think of the "who is your neighbour" question in the Good Samaritan. It is obviously the little girl. Not my brothers.

[Blueberry]

Those are some lovely Good Things, Matilda, especially you realising the support you got outside FOO, from the 'free' supermarket lady and your little neighbour girl. So heart-warming.

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1) I decided on second thoughts to go to a short peace prayers group today after all and it did me good
2) Receiving support and kindness in unexpected places, from unexpected people
3) It's enough to have just 2 Good Things sometimes.

[Matilda2]

Sounds nice.

Coming from a trauma background I feel I always am super grateful when people show kindness. In unexpected ways. Happy you have similar experiences.

1. I worked. We did creative stuff. I totally love creating things. And the mentally disabled teens I work with. My family is adamant they are much smarter than others. But I prefer working with these girls. They are very open and direct. Haha..I used complex sentences and they said: too difficult!!! Just pure. I also feel accepted. They are welcoming.

2. I have a volunteer helping with my finances. She came by.

3. I'm sorting out the dad feelings. But at least I succeed in not showing him emotions and vulnerabilities anymore.

[Marcine]

Reading the posts brought to my mind a new level of gratitude for everyday good things— and it feels really nice as an antidote to catastrophic-fear thinking.

For me today, I enjoyed taking some deep calm breaths.
And a second good thing today, that might seem counter-intuitive, was getting a root canal on one of my teeth
I've never had dental work like that before and it was a bit gnarly at moments, but I was in the good hands of a competent professional and his team.
I felt an ability to trust their skills and I really appreciated the compassionate care and clear communication. Surrendering to the process felt safe and smart. I don't often experience that! So, yeah!
And a third good thing today was hugging my kiddos.
Good wishes to you all

[Blueberry]

1) I listened to some favourite music
2) I decided against doing something planned in the evening because I was far too tired after all
3) Two are enough.

[Blueberry]

Just one for today:

The scent of some peonies out of the garden permeating my apt. Been strengthening all day and now in every room. Mmmmmm