starting over

[Desert Flower]

Right there with you San, tired myself. The stress just wears us out doesn't it.
And good luck with the new T.
(I was also thinking about the last T I had, these sessions were okay actually, EMDR and all that but it was just really strange that when I started talking about resetting my nervous system physically, she had no idea what I was talking about. Like Chart, I think it's just really hard to find a T who gets the total picture like we do here.)

Big hugs 

[NarcKiddo]

Wishing you well in your search for a new T. I hope you find a good one.

 

[sanmagic7]

thanks, chart, for your perspective.  i do get the whole idea of 'my T is getting as much from this as i am' train of thought.  i felt like that with my last T - she learned a lot from working w/ me.  as you said, even so, she gave me a sense of stability which i sorely needed, and the idea that someone had my back.  but, she did learn, and was extremely helpful to me in the end.  so, best to you with yours.

DF, thank you for being here for me.  and, yeah, i agree.  the stress is wearing.  except for maybe immediately after a nap, i'm pretty much tired all the time.  of course, getting proper and consistent sleep would probably help a lot with that!  as i said to chart, i had to educate my last T on a lot of aspects of myself, my 'self', and how i function. in all my years of therapy, i have yet to find someone who 'gets it'.  but we keep doing what we can, right? 

thanks, NK.  i hope so, too.  my D told me that when my medicaid comes thru, i just call them to find out about T's who are in their system, and i can't do that until next month, so everything's on hold right now.  but, we'll see!

just tired today.  we're gonna have our 'second summer' for the next 5 days, so it's gonna be warm again.  not looking forward to that, but i don't think it'll be as hot as during the regular summer.  hope not anyway.  plus, it won't last long.

my D is having to go thru these tests for narcolepsy, which is what we want to be wrong, and not just sleep apnea.  so, stressful again.  i feel so bad for her that she has to keep going thru this bull pucky.  it's just not letting her alone!  so, we're hoping for narcolepsy, which seems weird, but it might be what she needs to get some financial help from the feds.  that would be so great!  here's hopin'!

[Chart]

Hey San, how much research have you done on "gut health" and the micro-biome? I ask cause I wonder if your energy struggles might not be related to an unbalanced intestinal condition. I've been kinda haphazardly exploring this "area" since my hernia appeared three years ago. Lately I've come across all sorts of stuff that I've started taking as kindof "rapid" experiments... milk thistle, vitamin c, artichoke leaf, raw garlic, etc etc. I haven't found any clear-cut magical solutions, but the awareness of doing this stuff in combination with near-zero carbs and near-zero sugar has definitely convinced me that my belly and what I'm throwing down there has a Huge impact on my energy and depression, amongst other things. Another thing I've realized is just how hard it is for me to resist "comfort foods" and so I know I'm constantly backsliding. It's just too tough. But I keep trying to reorient, coming back on track after slipping a bit. Slowly, very slowly I'm building better habits and resisting the negative impulses. I say all this just as an observation to your lack of energy. Might it be related? Or similar in your current struggle with energy?
No implications or pressure, just curious and tossing out some thoughts and ideas. I would so love to hear you're feeling more energy and doing more easily the stuff you want to do. But I'm guessing you already have a lot of knowledge and experience with this subject too. Just throwing it out there for what it's worth.
  

[sanmagic7]

thanks for your thoughts, chart.  actually, i have taken steps, like not eating meat (except for the occasional serving of fish), lowering my carb intake, have added greek yogurt regularly to my diet for its probiotics.  sugar consumption is mostly down.  i do believe most of my energy drain is from stress - that part hasn't really let up too much, altho it is better than it was.  w/ my D's health problems, the worry/anxiety just ramped up 100-fold, and that kind of thing has always drained me of energy.  plus, my poor sleep.  just not enough deep, restful sleep, which, hopefully, will be quelled when i see a doc and can get some meds for my restless legs syndrome on a regular basis.  so, thanks again.  much appreciated. 

will be putting my hairstyling experience into practice tomorrow w/ my galpal.  it'll be nice to make a little extra $$.  it'll help make up for this past weekend when my D couldn't do her delivering thing cuz of being so exhausted.  speaking of low energy, it now seems that she will be treated for a form of narcolepsy, but she has to have an overnite sleep study done, and then a napping thing the next day.  they want to find out all about her sleep disorder is being affected.  we're excited for this (which in my case, is also stressful).  so, we'll see.