JDog's Journal

[Jdog]

Deep Blue-

Yes, the bar shooting is the one I was talking about.  Until very recently, I had relatives in that town.  Such a terrible tragedy.  Along with our fires, it's very triggering for a lot of us.  I'm not even worried about my use of food to numb me at the moment.  It's such a small thing compared with the pain so many are feeling.

Also - my student teacher learned his father suddenly died today. 

In terms of the speaker - yes, hard to know whether they really get through to students.  I did do a debrief today and some from each class at least sounded as if they got the messages.

[Jdog]

We have had trrrible air these past several days, but that's nothing compared with those who have lost lives, homes, and all semblance of normalcy.  Of course, our lovely president is waffling in giving federal aid as he blames the rest of us for poor forest management.  Hello?  Even if that were the actual problem, 80% of our forests are federal, not state property.  And he hasn't made massive cuts to the budgets which handle forest management.  Anyways, it is more related to climate change, which he denies having any bearing on the fires. 
Meanwhile, my wife and I are having a nice time together despite the woes of the world.  We cooked pumpkin bread and soup today, played Chinese checkers, listened to CDs, and watched movies.  I played my guitar for a little while.  My disordered eating is still a minor problem, but I see hope on the horizon.  And I walked outside without the cumbersome boot for the first time in 8 weeks.  I'm looking forward to regaining muscle and losing a bit of fat as I can begin walking more regularly.

Looking forward to some better things in coming days.

[Hope67]

Hi Jdog,
Every time I see the news, and the fires in California I am thinking of you and your wife - and I am glad that you are both safe.  I heard that your President had said about Forest Management, and I thought that was a very insensitive and badly thought out response. 
Your Pumpkin bread and soup sounds so lovely - and you had some quality time together - it sounds really good - and glad you were able to get out without that cumbersome boot - freedom!!!  Very pleased to hear you're both recuperating well and enjoying one another's company - that is really good. 
Hope 

[Jdog]

Thank you, Hope.  Life is so unpredictable, and I am extremely grateful that my wife is feel8ng better and that we are getting along so well.   I am still dealing with my own triggers, and am trying to be as self compassionate as I can.

Best to you, also.

[Jdog]

Following 3 days of misery  smoke, my school district finally decided to cancel class for tomorrow.  I honestly doubt whether enough teachers would have shown up to work tomorrow to teach the few students who were in attendance. The  air is truly that bad.   We are breathing in particles of toxic materials along with who knows what.  Ick.  So,  my wife and I will leave for our week vacation one day early.  Yay.


Feeling overwhelmed, overstuffed, overstimulated.   Noises are too loud.  Time for bed.

[Deep Blue]

I'm so sorry for the air quality,
My friend just bought a new vent for her air purifier.  Her asthma is really rough. 

I hope the air quality gets better.  Glad you two are getting an extra day off but sad for the circumstances 

[Boy22]

Enjoy your break.

[Three Roses]

Please take care, the two of you ❤️

[Jdog]

Thanks Deep Blue-

Sorry for your friend's breathing troubles.  We drove to Monterey yesterday and the air is much better here.  Diving to a town near Santa Barbara today. 

So much loss.   This disaster will take years to recover from.  Some, of course, will never recover. 

[Hope67]

Hi Jdog,
Wishing you the best for this week and also hope that you are ok.   
Hope 

[Jdog]

Hi, Hope-

Yep,  doing ok!  Thanks for asking!!  We are in S Cal and the air is much better!   

[Jdog]

We went by the makeshift memorial to the victims killed in the Borderline Bar in S Cal.  So sad.  A local screen printing shop made t shirts and sweatshirts and mugs, etc. with messages of support for those who have lost loved ones, with profits going to the families.  We bought some shirts and a mug and coasters.  It feels good to be able to help those who suffered such a terrible loss.  We will go walk on the beach later, trying to find some beauty during this time of murder and devastating fires. 

Glad you all are here.

[Three Roses]

Glad you're here, too. 

[Jdog]

 

[Hope67]

I am glad you're here too Jdog - sending you a warm hug  and a big group hug too 
Hope