Miscellaneous ramblings of NarcKiddo

[NarcKiddo]

Thank you, Moondance. That helps.
 

[TheBigBlue]

I agree, commonality ssems: someone is seen, helped, and brought to safety. I don't know if this resonates for you, but when I read it, it didn't feel "weird" at all, it felt like something very deep in you recognizing those moments. Almost like your system responding to something it maybe didn't get enough of, or had to long for. 💛

The Old Bear part especially touched me. The way you describe sitting on the floor, watching in peace, without having to brace for what comes next feels like such a different kind of experience than what Little NK knew growing up. No wonder it would carry meaning.

And I really love how you responded to her, offering one episode a day. That feels so gentle and steady, like creating something safe and predictable now, in a way that wasn't possible before. 🧸

It doesn't feel like something to "figure out" as much as something that already makes sense on a felt level. And you're listening to it beautifully. 💛

[dollyvee]

Hey NK,

I echo what everyone else on here has said and also that if someone is rescued, it means that someone is there for them and cares about them, and that they were there for them when they needed them.

I'm glad you and little NK are building your relationship.

Sending you support,
dolly 

[sanmagic7]

NK, i totally relate to crying when i witness a kindness/caring towards someone.  i do believe it's a sadness or grief related to the idea that i have rarely felt taken care of in my life.  have rarely felt that gentleness, that idea of being seen as someone who is hurting and being given a comforting hug, words of care, or a look of empathetic sadness for me.  this also happens when i see someone being loved in a romantic way.  i really do think it's some form of grieving that i haven't consciously connected to what i'm seeing.

sitting on the floor to watch your show - i always sat on the floor to watch tv when i was a kid, so i related to that from a kid place. 

i think the idea of safety, feeling safe, being safe, is a big one for many of us.  that the artemis mission is back in contact w/ nasa - ok, they made it, they're safe.  i think there's a lot of empathy there, and, again, a sadness w/in us that we didn't have that kind of attention, that kind of concern for our own safety.  sometimes i've been able to connect what i'm seeing and reacting to to something in my past, and then it's gut-crying time, but that feels more like grieving, and it helps release some of the poison i've learned to live w/ for so long.

i can remember watching a movie 'the miracle of marcelino' when i was very young, and crying really hard at the love shown at the end.  of course, i got ridiculed for it, and pretty much stopped crying after that.  there are a lot of tears inside that have never been allowed to come out. 

just my thoughts,  if they don't resonate, please ignore.  love and hugs

[NarcKiddo]

Now all of you have made me cry! Thank you for being there for me. It means so much.

    

[Moondance]

  

[sanmagic7]

NK, i'm smiling at the release of those tears.  i hope they were cleansing, at least a little bit.  love and hugs

[Hope67]