Activating myself

[Blueberry]

Things are continuing "easier" generally speaking. Where I notice it most is in meal prep. I don't think a day has gone by in the past week when I haven't made myself a warm meal at least once a day, even if that's starting out the day with porridge. Today and some other days I've had two warm meals. Sometimes it has 'just' involved cooking packet soup, but that is much more than I'd managed in the preceding months, years maybe even.

I'm also better able to feel when the next small task is just too much after all and then I leave it till later, next day or whatever.

[HannahOne]

Hooray for meal prep! 

[sanmagic7]

blueberry, it warms my heart to know that you're continuing to do more things in a good way for yourself than you have in the past.  i've been having more energy as well.  is this part of that 'infectious healing' or whatever you called it?  if so, i'm really liking it, not just for me but for a few others, including you, who seem to be feeling a little lighter and brighter.  well done, you!  love and hugs

[Blueberry]

Yesterday evening I decided it's time to activate myself again as of today. Took some steps to do so such as sleep meds and writing my Highly Recommend + Could list. Woke up very late today with a gigantic lump in my throat, painful too, and have stayed in bed. Some part of me putting the brakes on again.

[NarcKiddo]

 

[Blueberry]

Thank you NK.

In the evening I did do a few things including some tidying and cleaning in the kitchen. Even went into the garden and picked some wild flowers. Felt a bit spaced tho as if I have a temperature. Not so unusual for me.

Maybe I'll manage some weeding tomorrow. And/or picking weed salad before someone mows the grass.

[sanmagic7]

 

[Blueberry]

Picked a couple of dandelion flowers for a vase, gorgeous colour! And idly pulled a few weeds from my raised bed. Didn't get any further.

[sanmagic7]

it sounds to me like you got far enough, blueberry.  fresh flowers in the home is one of my favorite things!  and, yep, gorgeous color - really bright and sunny.  well done!  love and hugs

[Blueberry]

Thanks san! I got as far as I could. And that is enough. Only realised that in the past half hour though.

Same for a lot of things I couldn't activate myself for recently, like gardening including wild herb harvest since they're best this time of year. I simply wasn't able to. Too much going on in my subconscious, making going outside difficult. I didn't want to be seen, felt very vulnerable. Old feeling, EF I suppose.

[Blueberry]

Hooray for meal prep! 

Thank you, I like to look at your post from time to time. Ability to do meal prep still goes up and down for me, so helpful for me to see your post on a day like today when I managed meal prep!

[NarcKiddo]

I didn't want to be seen, felt very vulnerable.

I know that feeling. It can be way too debilitating to override it and do the thing anyway, so I'm glad you didn't do that. The backlash is often not at all worth it.